yemmyemm's territory

totally confused..

2009-04-28T18:03:00.000+08:00

"you must stay alert when you are sleeping.”

make sense?

trust

2009-03-25T00:02:00.004+08:00

trust your boyfriend/girlfriend? not gonna talk about this today but will talk abt trusting a friend instead.

how well do you know your friend? very well? best friend from primary/secondary? know this person so well that you are willing to do all sorts of silly things for them? Don't be silly! you will never know who you are dealing with until the day comes... you will soon see the real face of a so-called friend.

I've never seen such people in my life before.. Given trust by a friend but neither did he appreciate this friend nor see this person as a friend. You are the worst kind of friend i've ever seen.. If a regret list would have to be filled, being your friend and trusted you and helped you in all ways will be on top of the list.. so bring your glasses if you have to next time.

i am lucky that i don't have such friends with me.. i am blessed.. : )

u s . . .

2009-03-24T00:36:00.002+08:00

@ work

2009-03-07T00:17:00.002+08:00

I was very busy doing works in the office this whole week, skipped a few lunches, not that i am not hungry but there are thousand n thousand things waiting to be done and it must be done quick, before she comes and she is one of the company's boss from Japan.. maybe i should learn japanese? at least i can explain to her when she has doubts.

busy busy busy and it gets me back into the mood, to work hard again.. :)

comfort zone

2009-02-28T01:21:00.002+08:00

staying in the comfort zone is no doubt less worries and easy to cope with anything that is going to happen inside this zone.. but there comes a time when you have to make decision and leave that zone and venture into something new, something you are not familiar with and fill with so much of uncertainty.

Of course this is risk-taking, perhaps this is a chance and a good start for you to go further than where you are now. Leaving the comfort zone will help you learn and grow better and i believe in you, take it easy ya..

while you are stepping out of the zone, i am just learning how to leave the zone. :)

12 Feb 2009

2009-02-13T17:41:00.006+08:00

is my dear's birthday yesterday.. bought him naughty cupcakes for his birthday and we did had a lot of fun teasing each other and eating the colourful cupcakes. Anyway, the top is kinda sweet, but the cake is absolutely delicious. :)

found them on http://cupcakesbydatinmaryzain.blogspot.com/ or you can view the samples from www.flickr.com/photos/cupcakes_by_datinmaryzain

and guess what? i will be travelling to Bangkok next Saturday instead of April.. wahhaahaa.. feel so excited now.

shopping

2009-01-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

went shopping with mummy in Times Square and Sungai Wang today. Bought 4 pairs of jeans, 2 dresses, 3 polo-t and a blouse.. spent a total of i think..306

Really love shopping wey.. especially when there are huge discounts.

As i walked, i heard my name "Bee Yam ~~!!" and i was thinking who is calling me, and guess who, is IRIS. lol.. the world really is small.

ey Iris, eat more le.. remember last time you told me that i was too thin until i can fly when the wind blows? I can say that to you now le... lol

cleaning up

2008-12-16T22:08:00.002+08:00

spent a few hours cleaning up my room is quite tiring actually. not only i have to decide what to put where but i also need to decide what to keep and what to throw, and this has given me a hard time. I like to keep things, everything. From storybooks, magazines to souvenirs and even movie tickets, i just keep them all.

This time i throw away three big bags of magazines, books, notes, four small bags of useless things and i also manage to persuade myself to pack some of the souvenirs i bought or i got from friends, thinking of giving them away to the orphans, as Christmas present? not a bad idea ya.. but have no idea where is the nearest orphanage.

My table looks so clean n neat now, and my brother was like "this looks more like a desk, you can find anything on the table previously."

I am happy looking at my room now, feeling healthier also, lol... but how long will this last? one week? or two? I don't know.. :)

I still have my wardrobe to clean. Maybe i can donate some clothes as well...

Please die before me

2008-12-09T23:08:00.002+08:00

sometimes no matter how much effort you've made to try to make things better, regardless of what you might have to sacrifice, money, time, anything, things just won't get better... this kind of feeling is so not motivating, feel totally helpless..

wanted to scream out loud to release the anger, the disappointment for being treated in such a way, so unfair.

i wanted you to disappear in my life as soon as possible, i wanted to make you disappear in my life. I only want to live a simple life, so simple that I only demand the most basic things needed to survive. I rather live thousand times poorer than now than having to live with a monster like you. I do think i am still living in the QIn Dynasty, i wonder why..

Please die before me so that i can at least have my life, normal life..

i miss rainy days...

2008-12-03T15:38:00.004+08:00

i notice i can only focus reading when i am eating.. this is certainly not good..

"what you eat as lunch just now? anybody buy u lunch?" he asked

"i ate 2 fish lor..."

"fish? ur daddy buy for you?"

"no la, from the aquarium downstairs.."

".............."

I burst into laughter before i finish saying the last sentence...

btw, i really miss rainy days.. besides the horrible traffic jam and holding an umbrella everywhere i go, i prefer rainy days...

有感而发

2008-11-21T18:31:00.010+08:00

一个拥抱真的胜过很多东西，感觉到心里面真得很温暖，虽然平时都没有很熟络，可是这道大家都是关心大家的，偶尔的问候已经住足够了。。

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有些人很自我中心，讲话的时候丝毫没有顾虑别人的感受，只是一味的自以为是，自己说的就是对的，别人说全是借口。。有什么理由认为别人的无能为力就是借口呢？每个人都不一样，每个人的学习能力，观察能力，驾车技术和面对任何事情的反应都不一样，可是并不代表别人的就是错的，别人的就是有问题的。。一意孤行会令身边的人很难堪，或许没察觉到，那是不是你也有问题呢？当然若看见朋友做不对的时候，适时的开口是ok的，可是处处的挑剔好像有点过分，而完全不接受别人的解释也不见得有多好。。

学会了在适当的时候说适当的话，适可而止是很重要的。。。 =）

2008-11-18T21:45:00.002+08:00

recently i feel so _______________________

yeah, i feel so empty.

nothing really interest me.. I feel empty when i was driving in my car, only concentrating while i am driving, music makes me feel worse sometimes.. I sat in front of the computer, surfing the net hoping to see some thing that will catch my attention... Beautiful dresses do make my eyes n mind feel alive for a moment.. haha.. at least for a while.. I do enjoy my time with friends but the same feeling come back again when i go on my bed..

i notice i get upset more easily these days.. guess i already reached the line.. but i wont let this bring me down, i want to be happy all day again.. I think shopping will help me ease the pain of feeling empty..haha... Mega sales is coming soon..

maybe i'll feel worse when the bills come... :(

today

2008-11-11T18:09:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 9am this morning, brushed my teeth, took bath then sat on my chair preparing myself to do what i planned to do.. wanna stay focus n do revision the stack of papers on the table.. feeling happy and still planning what should i take as breakfast.. wholegrain bread? cream roll?

then a call came in at 9.45am before i decide what to eat.. i was told to attend a meeting in the office later at 10.30..

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... .... ... .... .... ... ... -_-'

haihh... get dressed, bought two fish balls and rushed to the office, luckily my office is not that far away from home.. Quickily run into the office only to realise later that the meeting will only start at 12pm.... Lost appetite for breakfast instantly...

busy the whole afternoon giving out information the bosses need, and that's not the end.. some works have to be done tonight at home for meeting tomorrow morning.. sien ar..... I lost appetite for dinner as well... did i mention that i forgot to eat lunch?

Few extra inches? maybe cm?

2008-11-04T17:37:00.007+08:00

I just got a b'day present, something very cute and erm... very useful for me? haha.. is a Height Increase Device or you can call it a YOKO device. Lol...

Is stated here in the booklet: According to .... Tokyo Research Laboratory.. piyuitary gland stimulation is found to be instrumental to height increases.

YOKO has been found to stimulate "nerve-point" of the feet effectively, which in turn stimulates the pituitary gland for increased hormonal production. Increased hormone production means greater growth of the cartilageneous portions of the bones of the lower body, making real height gain an actual fact.

Fantastic isn't it? I am feeling excited now and i think i would wear it to sleep, just to gain a few inches the next day...lol

From the cover of the box and the explanation, i think this is a product from Japan. However, in the explanation booklet, there is Malay explanation as well, so Japanese made this purposely to sell to Msian? I don't think so leh.. or maybe this is a pirated product.. yeah maybe, but nvm, i will still giv it a try..hahaa..

see, no joke, it comes with a Guarantee Card somemore... so funny.. But it does add a bit of my confidence towards this product... yeah.. a little... =)

So everyone out there, let me try first and i'll tell you the results in maybe.. erm.. 3 months time?

Anyway, Thanks Low Ser Ser and Poon Lai Fong for the present.. hugs

no rain?

2008-10-28T22:39:00.002+08:00

the weather is super super hot today... dun feel like stepping out of my office or house, just wan to feel my air-cond...

my grandpa said, "前几天下太多的雨了，下过隆了。。。" and i was like "haahahaha.. got such thing one meh?"

then this conversation reminds me of what my grandma said during tsunami, she said tsunami happen because "海龙王生气了，所以会淹水咯......" i can still remember i laughed until beh tahan.. ..

@ BellaRoma

2008-10-24T19:00:00.002+08:00

went there for dinner with hing chun n audrey.... Khai Lim appeared suddenly and joined us at our table..

Sze Mun said, "must come here... sit here n talk only also nvm, i belanja u all ice water.."

-_-

Joseph said, "Thanks for coming, come again for pizza deal, free pizza for u guys next time u come... "

=)

你说的。。。

2008-10-20T23:48:00.004+08:00

凡事都有第一次，坏的好的都一样。。。

今天，我在想，我可不可以完完全全的信任你，
答案是：不可以。。。

从来从来，我并没有怀疑过宝贝说的一言一语，我也曾经告诉过你，也告诉过自己，只要是你说的，都是真的。。我不想浪费多余的时间去做不必要的猜测，疑神疑鬼，我要的是我对你的信任，因为，如果，如果有一天，我怀疑你，我也怀疑我们的感情。。。

将心比心，宝贝时常说，要诚实，你说你不喜欢瞒瞒骗骗的，很无谓。。

很好。。结果呢？结果呢。。。。。。

不要无谓的争执下去，再多的解释真的只像一堆废话，并没有让我觉得好一点。。真的不要take things for granted, 你并不一开始就应该拥有现在的东西。。

对一段并不能够完全信任的感情，我觉得很无奈。。以前的我可以大大声地对你说，“只要是你说的，都是真的，你说是就是，不是就不是有，有就有，没有就没有。”

现在，当我想说时，喉咙好像塞住了。。没办法。。。

his n mine..

2008-10-14T21:41:00.002+08:00

i am not in a good mood

2008-10-10T00:17:00.003+08:00

this is the decision you've made.. don't tell me you have no choice, you are forced to follow, you don't want this to happen, is just rubbish.. you always tell me, when you make a decision, you will have to bear the consequences, you have no one to blame.. remember what you said, you will have to bear the outcome of your decision.

nothing can be perfect at both side.. you will need to sacrifice something when you r in a relationship and also if you are hoping to have a lasting relationship, otherwise, that's totally up to you...

tired of telling you what i think, i am tired of debating again n again with you.. and what is all this for? The result is the same, so why are we still wasting time trying to convince each other. You have made your decision n is clear, crystal clear.

No doubt this will definitely have some bad impact on yur relationship. I've told you before, if you insist, this will happen. You tell me no, you wan to keep me, you wont disappoint me, i remember almost every word you utter, and it all doesn't make any sense at this time..

I've always try to make you happy, or do something just to see you smile, i make little surprise for you and honestly i didn't do this for quite a long time.. I don't think i still wan to do all these things for you. I put my whole heart into this rship and hoping it to work, to last....zong zi, sien la, dun wan to talk about this anymore.

i dreamt of

2008-10-09T18:13:00.002+08:00

Audrey, Pek Yan, Wei Ken, Hing Chun, Wei Chuan and my parents last night..

i dream of my frens more than i dream of my boy, he'll sure be jealous if he knows this... lol

is 131

2008-10-09T18:12:00.001+08:00

mistakes i've made.. argh!

double work to be done.. sien le..

no heartbeat ad...

2008-10-06T17:52:00.003+08:00

work as usual in clinic today, patient flow is more than usual for today, clinic should be closed at 1pm but we are still having many patients at 2.. all of us were tired n wanted to go home as soon as possible included my doctor..

i think around 2.15, an auntie was carrying a girl (4-5years old ba) in her arm n rushed into the clinic, i can see panic n worry on her face and the maid behind her..

"She fainted, no breathing!"

"Into the doctor's room please."

Doctor said the girl's heart is not beating already, he asked us to call for ambulance and he quickly start CPR on her.

"CPR is a lifesaving procedure that is performed when an infant's breathing or heartbeat has stopped, as in cases of drowning, suffocation, choking, or injuries.

CPR is a combination of:

Rescue breathing, which provides oxygen to the infant's lungs.
Chest compressions, which keep the infant's blood circulating."

As my doctor is giving her chest compressions, I can see porridge coming out from both her nose n mouth.. and her body has turned grey.. Doctor also tried to suction the things blocking her throat.. after 15 minutes, there is still no sign that she is breathing and no heartbeat still.. ambulance hasn't arrived yet..

"Bee, call the ambulance tell them no need to come ad, no more ad..certified dead."

I called the hospital while those aunties start calling the parents i guess, and crying and then they send the child's body to hospital themselves.

All of us were so stoned after that..

='(

相爱很难

2008-10-04T00:54:00.005+08:00

最好有生一日都爱下去
但谁人能将恋爱当做终生兴趣
生活其实旨在找到个伴侶
面对现实热恋很快变长流细水
可惜我不智或侥倖对火花天生敏感
不过两只手拉的太紧

爱到过了界那对爱人
同时亦最易变成一对敌人
也许相爱很难就难在其实双方各有各寄望怎么办
要单恋都难受太大的礼会內疚却也无力归还
也许不爱不难但如未成佛成仙也会怕爱情前途暗淡
爱不爱都难未快乐先有责任给予对方面露欢颜
得到浪漫又要有空间
得到定局却怕去到终站
然后付出的多得到少不介意豁达又担心有人看不过眼
可惜我不智或侥倖对火花天生敏感
不过两只手拉的太紧

无论热恋中失恋中都永远记住第一戒別要张开双眼

張學友+梅艷芳 - 相愛很難 - Free videos are just a click away

is so true..
being in a relationship is not easy,
with different expectations from each other,
you'll ask for freedom when u have all the romance,
tie the knot and worry that's the end....

what's wrong with me?

2008-10-03T18:59:00.005+08:00

mood swing today since morning... not a second that i feel calm, not a second that i dont feel worry.. i don't know why am i having this feelings as well...

something in my heart keep telling me something is going to happen.. and everytime i feel this, something horrible come next... no please... i am asking of peace for mind now, i have to have a good sleep tonight, i have plenty of things to do tomorrow..

my life

2008-09-24T18:45:00.002+08:00

at times i really feel that i am lucky.. i experienced things that most people never meet in their life, and some can only be seen in drama.. i always think that i have a dramatic life, i see what most people don't see, i hear what most people will not hear in their life but i still feel i am lucky. At least thru all these things that i've been thru, i learn to be tough, i learn to be good, i learn to stand on my own, i also learn to let others depend on me, i learn hide my emotions behind because i have to, i was taught not to get married so soon because my family needs me.. I understand why they are telling me this, i don't blame them, i don't plan to get married so soon as well, because i think they still need me...

i still feel lucky, at least life is getting much better now... i am what i am today, every single things that happened in my life makes me what i am today. at least i am luckier than many many people out there. I don't drive a BMW or sports car, just a local car, but at least i am not walking on my feet everyday.. i am not carrying branded handbags but i feel contended to only have my current Esprit bag. I must say that i am easily contended, i'm glad of what i am having..

but those are not the point, sometimes i feel tired too of carrying such a burden with me everyday. Should i call it a burden? i feel bad to call it that way, erm.. is more appropriate to call it a responsibility. Often time i ask myself, how long will this go? i can't take this with me forever? I will be getting married one day, and what will happen to them? Will they be able to stay on their own? It worries me everytime i think about it. Can they handle the things that i am handling right now? Honestly, i do not have much confident towards them for now. They still gives troubles sometimes, why can't they just think more for the family, at least for themselves so that we can worry less for them.

When is the time for me to let this go?

Poppy Garden

2008-09-19T20:58:00.008+08:00

Last Saturday we celebrated Phang's birthday at Poppy.. It was real hot and i was sweating all over although i was only sitting down and chatting with frens.. As usual, we were talking loud as the music is much louder than our voice n at the end we just listen to the music and stop chatting... my dear boy was busy walking here n there talking to long-time-no-see frens, luckily i met up with some college frens n finally enjoy myself.. =)

Birthday boy, he is single n available!

us outisde poppy,met wyechuan n his pretty gal as well..

pretty girls..lol

me & Lawrence Chin!

college frens

break up season?

2008-09-09T18:05:00.002+08:00

or just a conincidence?

Many of my friends broke up with their beloved recently, while many having arguments as well... when i was in secondary school, me n my friends used to think that break-ups do have a season, most couple split up at tat time..

i am lucky, becoz i am still surviving well in this season... =)

and LaySye (my primary school mate) is pregnant! I know her for since year 1993, yeah, when i was still a tiny little girl.. and now she is pregnant!! and I am so happy for her...

Bye Lovely..

2008-09-02T17:41:00.003+08:00

I found my dog dead on the road when i was on my way home.. She was lying on the road, she must be trying to cross the busy road.. I kept crying n crying.. haihh.. so sad..

I never like dogs, cats, rabbbits or any other pets, i just don't dare to touch them, i always have a feeling that they will bite.. I never touch Lovely before too, but watched her from far or run into my house whenever she is near.... I didn't spend much time playing with Lovely actually, but when i found her dead on the road yesterday, i really feel very sad..

truth hurts but...

2008-08-23T00:35:00.002+08:00

a few days ago, i went to bed at around 10 every night, feeling tired n exhausted.. nothing much have i done but my mind just need a rest... but today is a little different, i tried to sleep but my mind is clear, so i just have to try to find something to do until i could put myself to bed...

was having this chat with my darling yesterday, one of his friend is planning for his birthday party, and this friend actually asked all his friends to come without bringing their girlfriend, the point is, he is also inviting lots of girls to this party. so the guys will have to find reasons not to bring their girlfriend along.. some cheated while my boy told me the truth yesterday.. i saw his friend cheated his girlfriend right in front of us when we yum cha yesterday night... this friend was telling his girlfriend that he is going outstation soon to do some work, and he also told me that my boyfren will be going outstation with him.. and both his girlfren and i believe, who knows they are just acting rite..

i was shocked when my boy told me it was just a lie, a lie to the girl so that she will not follow her bf to the party, she will be thinking that her bf is working somewhere else, but definitely not partying with other girls in a club. should i be scared as well? somehow i just feel so cold at heart, i'm glad he told me the truth but looking at his friends, they are just worthless.. and i believe this is not the first time they do tis. I remember telling my boyfriend to always tell the truth than saying sorry later.. a lie to lose a girlfriend? find your balance..

today is a good day..

2008-08-18T19:46:00.000+08:00

because i just got a good news... yay!

HaPpY 2nD aNniVeRSaRy mY dEaR...

2008-08-15T23:05:00.005+08:00

10th August

2008-08-12T20:33:00.003+08:00

八月十日。。。。一个多么难忘的日子，纵使过了那么久，每一年的今天都会提醒着自己有那么一个承诺，有那么一个我们的约定。。。

想一想，算一算，也有十年了吧，十年前的今天，我是最幸福的。。。我们约定十年后，无论还有没有在一起，都要出现在这个我们开始的地方，带着我们的另一半或者单独扑约。。应该是五年后吧，结果大家都觉得还不是时候就把约定定在十年后的这一天。。

突然觉得很难过，不是因为放不下，而是因为我们也经历了很多，也让我很清楚的知道我们的距离。。。每一次，只要你有要求，无论任何事，我都一定尽力办到。。可是却一次又一次得让我心疼，好可怕。。。只好又催眠自己别再为这样的一个人付出，别再浪费时间。。。可是每一次你的出现都会让我心跳停顿一下，然后又得浪费一段时间令自己冷静下来。。。 haihhh....我也不明白你到底哪里好，哪里吸引了我。。。一次又一次的跌下你的圈套，然后自己有一个人爬回出来。。。。

当自己发现约定竟然是这一年时，心里兴奋但也很落寞，知道约定终于到了，可是也知道只有自己记得，也知道会出现的应该只有自己吧。。为什么？因为对这段过去了的感情还有感觉？还抱希望? 我也不知道。。。。只知道等这一天等很久了，彼此鲜少联络，各忙各的，可是时常都会提醒他这一个日子，一个十年的约定真的好不容易。。好不容易在这十年里我们还记得，我们还是朋友，曾经以为这是约定是无聊的，谁会当真呢？可是这一天真的来临了。。。

也许时间又不对了吧！我并没有像以前般的期待这一天的到来，一半是因为我现在有了另一半，并不想辜负他对我的好，一半是因为不要让自己期待太高，免得失望。。。身边懂我们有着这一个约定的朋友都告诉我说不要傻了，不要去了。。。他们都心疼我吧！我也怕会受伤，所以并没有想过当天会出现。。。

结果，在另一半的陪伴下，我还是载着一个我们约定的日期出现在我们约定的地方。。你呢？ =）朋友问我会失望吗？ erm..... 还好吧。。。还好吧。。。。如果真的看到你的话，我也不知该怎办。。。。

七月

2008-08-08T23:46:00.003+08:00

have been travelling up north to Taiping and Kuantan these few weeks and is pretty tired.. am really scared to stay alone at hotel, hotel are full of ah-wuu~~ omg, i can't imagine if i would have to stay in a hotel alone.. i'll make sure i am bringing someone with me if i must stay overnight there.

remember those days when i was still very young, i am so scared of ghost, chinese ghost actually, those we call "giong si",those dead people wearing long long baju with a hat and jumping here and there. I remember a scene in the movie, we must not breathe in front of a "giong si" or they will see us, so i always tahan not to breathe during night time, especially on my bed when everyone is asleep, so san fu, why was i doing tat?? lol.. i even covered my blanket until my neck, thicker on my neck actually, thinking that i might be able to prevent the "giong si" from biting me if they ever appear.. lol.. haihh...

then, as i grow up, i don't watch "giong si" movie anymore, instead, i started watchin ju-on n some other japanese ghost stories, sometimes korean stories, and i no longer scared of "giong si" now but pale women and child, covering their face with long hair. okay, i am scaring myself now, i think is enough, but those "things" do hav trend also ya..lol

Sabah

2008-08-04T19:08:00.019+08:00

yay!! another half-sponsored trip to Sabah. Doctor paid for accommodation n airfares and the rest on ourselves. Is pretty good actually cause the big amount already covered by my doctor. hehe... thanks ya..

was pretty fun there in Sabah except the fact that we actually stayed there for 4 nights, we ran out of things to do most of the time.

catching the flight at 7am meaning leaving home at 4 something in the morning, feel like singing "4 in the morning" ? lol... slept at around 2 so u can guess how tired i was and i couldn't sleep at all in the plane.. i was feeling dizzy all the time..oh ya, i was with my glasses in the morning, seen me in glasses before? know wat, i seldom put on my glasses coz i think is ugly.. hehe...

First day in Sabah, without any plan , we took free bus to 1-Borneo (The largest shopping mall in Sabah).. and 1-Borneo is just another 1-Utama... sien right... didn't do much shopping there, bought some fresh vege n chicken fillet and u r right, we r cooking tonight!

mint-model wannabe

yummy... it tastes good! chicken with potatoes.. oh ya, the condo we stayed in was fabulous with the facilities it has. The service was good n the condo looks new.

and there it goes, the second day in KK. We spent most of our time sitting in the bus travelling from place to another, and it was not good. However, upon reaching KK park, you wil feel refreshing again. The canopy walk was fun and long and of course tiring..

Kota Kinabalu Mountain as background

Third day was the most exciting day which i waited long for. The activity planned for the day is whitewater rafting at Kiulu River. The whole journey took around 45 mins to 1 hour and trust me, is too short.. You should enjoy body rafting as well, and you just flow with the river water..The water cold although a bit dirty, just make sure you don't drink the water then i guess is fine...

4th day at Manukan Island... building sandcastle surronded by shells with these two handsome boys...
tired after 2 hours of snorkelling but fish was nowhere to be seen... so sad...

就是爱你

2008-07-22T23:53:00.002+08:00

陶喆_就是爱你 - The most amazing bloopers are here

无论在什么时候，只要听到这首歌就会觉得很舒服。。。

我们都记得这首歌，和歌里头的意思。。

有一段时间没听了，需要灵感的时候听也很不错。。 =）

2008-07-17T23:12:00.004+08:00

coming august..

2008-07-15T13:05:00.002+08:00

was talking to fs about you..

we both agreed that the chances of winning toto is much more higher than u showing up on that special day...

lol...

imperfection

2008-07-09T11:24:00.003+08:00

For a moment i thought everything is perfect..

but after all, is just that short moment that seems perfect...

a phase

2008-06-20T02:03:00.007+08:00

"When u truly care for someone, u dun look for faults, u dun look for answers, u dun look for mistakes. Instead, u fight the mistakes, u accept the faults and u overlook the excuses."

u sure boh??

When i look at this statement, i wonder how true is this... how many of you can actually overlooking all the wrong things you've done, ignoring all the mistakes you've made, and never feel tired hearing the same excuses over and over again... i don't think i can... i don't think i ever can... i can't pretend when you've made a mistake and not to correct you. Don't want to be blindfolded in a relationship...

Feeling very emotional these few weeks... think about how we met each other, think about how we used to talk until we fall asleep holding the phone, think of how well you mix with my frens, think of the day you told me you feel much better listening to my voice after a hard day at work.. and what is happening now.. i can hardly see the romantic you again..

conversation is non other than everyday routine now, is this a phase that every relationship must go thru? I always try to giv you surprises, even more often when i realised our sparks is no longer there, or much much lesser now, but i just couldn't see you making your effort as well..

disappointment over disappointment, they just pile up like that... I don't think you realised the changes in me, i guess i hide it well.. =) wanted to ask you so many times, where is your patient? where is your passion? where is your toleration? where is my weekly bedtime story? sighhh.... i still love hugging you, at least i am still feeling you, and your eyes stares at the computer, your hands on the keyboard, what am i doing?

August 2006

XIXILI

2008-06-14T00:18:00.008+08:00

in case you don't know, XIXILI is a bra brand, one bra costs around 45 ~ 60, depends on the material and also design. And XIXILI is having its first warehouse sales from today till this Sunday at Kota Damansara. Trust me, you are going to love it... is super attractive, XIXILI can definitely gives you the comfort you need.. Let the pictures speak for itself ya..

should hav taken a picture of the queue...

sze mun.. yeah.. another XIXILI's fan..

a box of bras and panties, hers + mine... lol

i think i can stop buying bra for tis yr and next yr... lol...

hehe.. addicted..

oh so stress

2008-05-31T21:44:00.003+08:00

I just wish i could have more time now, if not, better memory..

But again, memory storage is definitely running low after trying so hard to put in so many things in my brain, getting harder and harder to concentrate.. might be because am nervous a little... by the way, memory storage and memory retrieval is totally difference.. i am also afraid that i couldn't recall what i store in my memory and that will definitely leads me nowhere but to great disappointment again...

Lord, do bless me in every way you can.... Amen..

Lost at this moment...

2008-05-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

COVER GIRL

2008-05-22T17:33:00.001+08:00

Create Fake Magazine Covers with your own picture at MagMyPic.com

a KiaraN i am...

2008-05-20T22:25:00.003+08:00

KIARA? SAGA? CEMARA? MARGOSA?

I keep my baju Kiara until today and still wearing it when i sleep because it is big, comfortable to wear it when i sleep... haha

never forget that i was a member of Kiara house.. woo-hoo~~~
thinking about the time when all of the girls joined the cheerleading team.. even best friends can become so secretive before Sports Day... lol...

"kiri kiri kiri kanan kiri KIARA!"
those were the days...

-

2008-05-18T17:53:00.001+08:00

怎么我会那么笨？

HELP THEM

2008-05-18T15:15:00.005+08:00

Tears just came down my face when i saw these pictures on a newspaper.... what is more painful than losing those you love... The least we could do now is to donate some money to them. Act fast!

MAS Zero-Fare: AirAsia striked back!

2008-05-17T21:47:00.004+08:00

as i was planning for my coming trip, AirAsia and MAS are making attractive promotions. Just one day after MAS airline came up with zero-fare at domestic travel destination, AirAsia came up with the same thing but covering places outside Malaysia. The best part of this is i benefit from both promotions.

My doctor agreed to bring all 9 nurses to Sabah with MAS promotion, paying only airport tax at RM270 per person. We will try our very best to explore Sabah during our 5D4N trip in July... Heard that we will be going for white water rafting, so excited! The last time we went on a trip with my doctor was around 3 yrs ago in Sarawak, stayed very high up on at hill, basically we were "trapped" in the resort. The room was fantastic but without TV, the resort is the only thing on the hill, erm..... is peaceful and quiet, well, not so suitable for young girls like us.. hahahah.... that's why i said we were trapped there... but no worries this time i guess because we are staying in the city, kekeke....

What did i do during AirAsia promotion? i search and search see where can i go with my boyfriend. i search for Krabi, Phuket, Bangkok, Macau and anywhere possible. To my surprise, my boy agreed to go on a vacation with me again! usually he just ignore me when i tell him abt the promotion, or he will just say "next time la....." Then called his friend to ask them whether they wan to join us and their answers are as usual as well "wah.... now hav to decide ar? can let u know tomorrow ar?" "er... i am not sure whether i am free wor...." damn stoned lor.... cheap air tickets are very very attractive u know? is like now u see, now u don't.. the next minute you browse, the available tickets are all taken... therefore, without waiting for their answers (they probably won't giv me any answer anyway), i made payment for 2 flight tickets to BANGKOK.. wahahaha.... it will be in April 2009, yes, is almost 1 year from now, so that i can save money for my trip and cheap tickets are like that, you must book so much earlier in advance...

-_-

2008-05-14T00:04:00.002+08:00

sore throat + ulcer + flu + fever + headache = so sick

been lying on the bed for 2 days.. besides eating, i spent most of my time sleeping...

stomach feeling empty now although i just had indomee.. lots of wind i guess... is Wednesday again tomorrow and tat means is Jack Day again tomorrow, i shall recover soon.... i miss you...

HOT

2008-05-05T21:21:00.014+08:00

the weather again is torturing now, wanted to save the earth so i make a very small effort by not turning on the air-cond UNLESS the weather is intolerable... and my air-cond is on since i came home from work... i can feel the temperature of my body,is getting warmer n warmer... i am just getting sick again i guess... signs of dehydration appear again... drinking lots of water which makes me go to the toilet so often now, lips start cracking, having ulcer, feeling hot most of the time...

at this point of time, i miss Adelaide so much so much.. it was 3 years ago... i was there for a month, the whole month of March... it was autumn, the weather was just right, not too cold not too hot... miss everything there, the sky, the clouds, the river, the trees, the people, the buildings, the Australian accent, the yogurt i bought from the market everyday, oh yeah, the market, the kitchen, basically just everything...

i gained 2kg when i came home from Adelaide.. the first and only time i gain weight without even notice about it.... hahahah.... the beach, the sunset, the picnic, the kites, the zoo, the lecture hall, the air.. hahaha... i didn't forget i am Malaysian, i just miss those days in Adelaide and a few days in Melbourne... lol...and so many of you in Australia now, meeting up with friends in a foreign land, is just different, is great....

it was a long time since i last took a picture of myself (maybe a few weeks time.. haha)... didn't go anywhere lately, my heart keeps telling me to plan for a vacation, love to explore every place in the world, i shall keep my dream small now, next place to visit would be Pulau Perhentian, heard that it is more beautiful n quiet than Redang... so many works to be done before i can plan for my trip... =(

missing those days....

= (

2008-05-01T15:49:00.003+08:00

can't help but feel disappointed of what you said...

maybe we should be secretive in a relationship..
maybe i just tell you too much of myself..
maybe you just like to keep something to urself..

i dunno what you think...

Love Notes...

2008-04-25T19:33:00.005+08:00

as i said, a relationship sometimes needs some sparks by giving each other some surprises from time to time... everybody love suprises isn't it? =)

one Friday night, sitting down cutting colourful papers again, glue them with one ribbon each and wrote notes on each paper.. the next day, when he was asleep, quickly and quietly and carefully sticks those colouful papers on the wall... then went back to bed but was excited to see his face when he wakes up...

when he woke up and walked to the bathroom, he saw these colourful papers on the wall..... and said,

"why you decorate your wall like that, not nice also...." then walked to the bathroom.

".... .... .... .... .... .... .... .... ... ..... ..... ...... .... ....... HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME?"

"hahaha...joking la...."

on the wall when he was asleep....

before sticking them to the wall...

Desktop instead of laptop...

2008-04-21T20:25:00.004+08:00

been without internet and computer for almost 2 weeks.....it was horrible, sitting in front of my table, and the only thing i can do is read besides talking on the phone... it does good to me at least i can really pay attention when i read.

just bought a desktop, was thinking of getting a laptop but after several thoughts and discussion, i chose desktop instead because its life span is much more longer than laptop. maybe, i can repair my laptop when i save enough money.. hehe...

part of my room..

Bye bye my dear laptop..

2008-04-12T21:47:00.002+08:00

My Toshiba laptop which i bought during Aug 2005 is nothing more than a piece of scrap now....

Bye bye laptop, so sad..

誘惑

2008-04-05T21:28:00.003+08:00

看到朋友難過傷心，自己也替他難過。。。

被人背叛真的很難受，無論是誰都很難接受。。只是這次的事情又再一次的提醒了自己，要好好的保護自己，不要再一次的被傷害。。。人真的很脆弱，也很健忘，很容易忘記自己當初是怎麽喜歡上一個人的，脆弱是因爲大多數的人都經不起誘惑，很多的感情都經不起考驗的，説變就變，那麽地措手不及，那麽的可怕。。。

雖然並不是發生在自己的身上，可是也很害怕會有那麽一天。。當自己把希望和時間都用在一個人身上，換來的卻是無法挽回的結果，很可悲。。。有時不是說堅強就可以堅強，說放下就放下，陰影還是存在的，傷心還是難免的。。雖然現在一切一切都很美好，沒有什麽需要擔心的地方，可是誰又能保證以後會怎樣呢？以後，曾經給你的承諾已被忘記了，曾經對你的誓言不再屬於你了，曾經的曾經也只是大家的回憶而已。。，，很恐怖。。雖然我的他也答應我不會對不起我，可是當事情真的發生的時候又可以怎樣呢？我沒有懷疑我的他所說的話，我相信現在的他對我是真的，我也相信現在的他不會見異思遷，現在，但以後的是真的輪不到我們去想。。。

一段感情是不是一定會慢慢退熱，有時我也會懷念熱戀時的情景，有時也會害怕會忘記那種甜甜的感覺，所以會不斷的製造驚喜，希望可以讓我們的感情維持的更久，希望我們不會那麽快就有老夫老妻的感覺。。希望這一切一切他會好好地珍惜。。。

給朋友的話： dear, 我們都是你的好朋友，你乖，要振作，love u always....

nurses @ shogun

2008-03-23T17:38:00.001+08:00

had our so called annual dinner at Shogun.. didn't take any pics of the food, but lots of pics of ourselves... lol.. we certainly love ourselves more.... not much can i say about the food... is just an ordinary buffet...

be considerate pls..

2008-03-15T00:09:00.008+08:00

i wonder why people just can't understand and be considerate when they enter the cinema. Those funny funny reminders especially the one by Digi certainly didn't change the bad habits of some inconsiderate people.

Please.....

rule number 1 is non other than ---- switch off ur cell phone or put it in silent mode. Hey you, others pay for their ticket too and all deserve to have a good time in the cinema. If you must answer a call, make a move outside to talk.. some people just don't feel shame when they talk so loud in the cinema. so many eyes starring at them and they can just ignore it. what is this?

keep your voice down. We don't need your comment...."Daniel Wu so leng chai.." "aiyo.. the girl very pitiful hor..." This is what i heard from a group of aunties in the cinema... no bias against aunties or what but they just don't give a damn when i shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh them. they are sitting just a few seats next to me.. some people just don't feel shame when they annoy others.. this is a common one..

stop shaking ur leg! this is wat happened yesterday, a malay man was sitting next to me and he keep shaking his leg.. i was at MBO cinema, the seats are closer so i can feel my seat was shaking as he shake his leg. i turn my head and look at him instead of the movie for like half a minute, i make it obvious, he did notice, but continue shaking his leg.. omg... so inconsiderate..

put ur feet down. It is really suffering when smelling the unpleasant odour of someone's feet and watching movie at the same time.. when the actor is happily having a fulfilling dinner with his love one, and of course u wan to imagine urself at such a situation but how can u do so when u are smelling someone's feet..

Be considerate please... this is not your room...

Jit Jhun's Wedding 9March2008

2008-03-11T18:01:00.006+08:00

the lovely husband & wife..

Can you see Hing Chun hiding?

after all, we are just kids...

@ Changi Airport

2008-02-26T20:42:00.003+08:00

I am currently standing in front of a computer at Changi Airport waiting for time to pass and go on plane. feeling tired now, shoulder and legs aching.. wanna go for a massage after i go back to KL... can't wait to feel my bed and my blanket... can't wait to see my mummy and my family members.. can't wait to see my boy too... hahahaha... i came to SIngapore just yesterday but i am missing them right now.....

Father in Heaven, please protect us on our journey home.. May the journey be a safe and comfortable one without any delay..Amen..

WTF

2008-02-24T15:36:00.001+08:00

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LangKawi aGAiN...

2008-02-20T12:24:00.013+08:00

"huh?? Langkawi again??" This was what i told my boy when he told me about our CNY trip..

i remember telling myself and also promise myself that i will not go to Langkawi again unless travel by airplane.. Unfortunately, my boy told me that we will travel by our own car... he left me with no choice but to agree with him :( i still remember how suffering it is sitting in the bus keep waiting and waiting to reach the destination it was SO cold in the bus i even have to cover my nose, wear socks n a thick jacket..and they only stop once in such a long journey. i dare not drink water at all! however,travel by car is much more comfortable than travel by bus.. at least i can adjust the air-cond myself and the seat is definitely bigger and also softer. I managed to sleep for a while in the car on my boy's lap as my pillow.. it took us around 6 hours to reach Kuala Perlis, and the Har Mee there is selling at only RM 2.50! tastes good with cheaper price, higher satisfaction!

anyway, reached there rent a van and headed straight to our hotel to have a good rest. We stayed at Bella Vista, it looks like a castle from the outside, is really beautiful, the downside was it is located in town, no beach walk during midnight, unlike last time, we just lie on the beach looking at the stars, so peaceful... i am sure some of you will remember this as well... really miss those good old days.. anyone would like to plan our next trip?

we went Pulau Payar on the second day of our trip. all this while i keep imagining the view of Pulau Payar, it must be so so so beautiful as seen in pictures, and i've heard from frens too that Pulau Payar is a must-visit-place if u are in Langkawi.. compare to island hopping which charged at RM 35 per person, going to Pulau Payar is more expensive which cost RM 150 per person.. so, cannot blame me or us for having such a high expectation towards Pulau Payar.. and yes, it was disapponting... we did see small sharks swimming around, 2 or 3, there are other small fish as well but no corals... maybe because i've seen more beautiful beach and fish.. in Redang, u see all kind of fish, i saw not only shark, fish with rainbow colour swiming in a group, with coral all over,corals in different sizes, shapes and colours. i even saw Nemo and took picture of it! it was so beautiful, words really can't describe here.. however, my boy n his frens managed to find something fun to do during extreme bored while waiting for the ferry to come.. they catch crab with plastic bags.. it was dangerous, they were standing on those slippery rocks.. and they caught one small crab with red eyes.. lol.... just like small kids ya...

we went Seven Wells Waterfall again, the guys enjoyed themselves very much there.. overall, this trip is another unforgetable one.... i always love going on vacation..

there is the crab......

waiting for the ferry to rescue us...

just the two of us....

taking pics of the castle...our hotel actually...

the guys....

"am i heavy?"i asked.. "no" he replied. two minutes later, "i was wrong" he said... lol

a MESS...

2008-01-31T22:51:00.000+08:00

life is a mess lately...

been rushing here n there these few weeks, spending money like water... bonus all gone ad... ='(

am thinking whether i am thinking too much... haihh.... i don't understand myself either...

life is so far okay.....
money is not so okay....
work is okay....
relationship erm... okay.....

i want more than just OKAY!!

@ T.G.I THE CURVE

2008-01-09T12:18:00.000+08:00

yeah... a gathering on Monday at TGI The Curve.. Wei Chuan sent a sms to everybody, he called it an incentive, saying the first 10 ppl to arrive will get free drinks... lol... but all came late..lol... except the girls, late for not more than 15 mins... according to Iris, this shows that girls are more kiasu than guys.... lol.... do u think so?

Then, me n Iris went to one of the waiter n tell them to send cake to our January babies-----> CHIN WEI CHUAN & YONG HUAI LENG... i told them to make it loud n clear while iris told them to embarrass these babies to the MAXXXX.... hahahahaha..... and guess wat???

----- LOUD & CLEAR + MAXIMUM EMBARRASSMENT -----

2 0 0 7

2007-12-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

oh well, this is an update of what i've been doing for the past few weeks... lol... wanted to blog more often but sometimes i am busy, sometimes i am sleepy, sometimes the internet is down, sometimes... am not a good n responsible blogger ya... lol...

have to look at the pics taken to remind me of what i've done n where i've been for the two months at least..... lol.... taking photos is really fun sometimes, by looking back at them u'll find sweet, stupid, happy, sad and funny pics in it.... my boy used to ask me, "why you always take pics? even ur fingers u also wanna take?" and now, he never ask anymore, he just let me take watever that caught my attention... lol....

13 November 2007 - My B'Day oF coZ......

hehe... i can still recall what i did that day.. the night before my bday, when i was sitting on my bed reading, my boy called, "i am going out with my friends now." and i said okay... half an hour later, which was around 9.30pm, he called again, "can you open the door for me? i am outside ur house now." lol.... what a surprise! actually i knew that he will come, but i still have to give the "very SUPRISE" look, hahaha.... i felt sweet at heart... my boy bought me a cake n we ate the whole cake as our supper... slept till noon the next day, went for movie and have Thai food at todinefor at Chulan Square then boy fetch me home again... present?? nope... not yet.....

wanted to buy Crocs but no time to go shopping yet.... lol... old people always say do not buy shoes for ur love one because he/she will leave you after tat... do you believe in that?

Birthday cake from my boy..

17 November 2007 - Celebrated b'day at Sit a Spell Cafe..

celebrated wye chuan's n my bday at wai yang's cafe... didn't know so many ppl turned up... sitting at the long table really makes me suffer a little, wanted to talk to everybody but long table is nv a good idea isn't it.. we had a long dinner (lol) and a noisy dinner... everybody talks like nobody is around.. i think mun chiew n wye chuan mentioned about a trip to HK or Korea but after several discussions, downgraded to a trip to Melaka or Penang, lol... so where now?

thank you my dear friends for making my bday a memorable one again...

Our B'day Cake(green tea flavor) , isn't it lovely?

Burfday Boy & Girl

birthday boy n girl wanna be...

yeee.... so cute!

munchiew~~~

haha..love it anot? i love it..

24 November 2007 - My mum's b'day

bought by my boy..

lol... many birthdays in November ya.... went to a nearby restaurant to have dinner with my family.... love you mummy....

3 December 2007 - Sze Mun's Bday

@ Sit a Spell Cafe

with da Queen...

had an exam in the afternoon till 6pm then rushed to wai yang's cafe again to celebrate Sze Mun's birthday... was having a bad headache (do i look like i'm suffering from headache from the pics?) and was rushing home after that, don't wanna drive alone at night, is extremely dangerous nowadays in Msia.... sigh..... went home early but was suffering from stomachache since midnight... only recover a week later....

7 December 2007 - Super Show in Genting Highland

hahaha... this is the third time i won prizes from Astro... i won four VIP tickets to watch the SUPER SHOW in Genting Highland.... is pretty easy to win those prizes actually, try logon to http://www.astro.com.my/ and look for astrolife then enter any contest listed.. The SUPER SHOW is pretty much the same as what we watched in the tv, we were sitting at the 9th row from the stage...

before 25 December 2007

why before?? because i was busy preparing present for my boy.. lol... if you know me long and well, you shld know that making cards for my boy during special day is one of my hobby.. i bought papers from white to black, light pink to maroon, any colour that i can possibly find in a stationery shop and start making Christmas card for my boy... how do you like the card? i love it... hope my boy likes it too...

only 10 % done, but tis is the hardest part... it tooks me around 1 hour to do this from experimenting to the above

snow man is here!!! just testing whether it can stand..Lol..

dang dang dang dang!

hehe... all done by 3 in the morning...

31 December 2007 - New Year Eve

no pics to new yr eve.. was having bbq in my fren's house.. it was quite fun preparing the food, singing karaoke and bbq.... we saw fireworks from the house, just right in front of us... hehe....

so, year 2007 is definitely a good year and 2008 will be much better... is the yr of Rat... is our year....

平和型（隨和豁達，樂天知命）

2007-12-25T17:08:00.000+08:00

您通常是溫暖、友善、忍耐、隨和、不好競爭，以及愛說話。您偏好和平、有組織、可預期而舒服的生活。
您喜歡配合環境，因而很難知道自己的優先次序，變成跟隨別人所希望而去做事，有時候甚至模仿別人說話的腔調、用詞，以及身體語言。

優點：
非常主動，具有眾多興趣和嗜好。您喜歡與人為伍，可以為了別人而發揮最具生產力的工作成效

缺點：
您會「自我遺忘」，失去了什麼是對自己真正重要的覺察力。您很容易分心，即使一個人時，亦有可能把高度優先的事情留到最後才做。看起來很像是拖延，但並不故意。

愛情：
您一旦擁有了關係，不會想到分離，而且會承諾去經營恆常不分離的關係。您既忠誠又慷慨，可以不帶妒忌或競爭心去支持並慶賀伴侶的成功，當伴侶的需要浮現時，更能給予回應。

您的憤怒最有可能在親密關係中顯現。因為當您迎合別人時，自己就消失了。「我有好長一段時間不知道自己的感覺，總是一片空白。當她投射出她所認為我感覺到的事情時，我們便陷入爭吵。我痛恨這種情形，但是對於引發我找到自己想要什麼確實有幫助。」

安定方位：成就型在安定的狀態下您會變得很專一，能在短時間內完成許多傑出的事。

壓力方位：忠誠型
當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會變得充滿恐懼，意識到所潛在的威脅，不但變得退縮，甚至唯命是從、好鬥、彆扭而且更頑固

建意：
問問自己的想法，而非顧慮別人的意見注意您對改變的不適感，學習歡迎新事物。注意您的頑固和被動式抗拒

最渴望：和洽相處
最恐懼：有紛爭，有衝突
最難達到的美德：果斷 (Right action)
最難克服的執念：懶惰 (Sloth)

for my dear

2007-12-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

it was so sweet to hear you whisper at my ears...

even better when u make promises..

promises that i never thought u'll say at this time...

i love you, Jack...

oHhhHhhh!!! BeHAvE...

2007-11-07T00:03:00.000+08:00

stop distracting me....

BEHAVE please... ...

SD Club

2007-10-18T19:50:00.000+08:00

hehe.. went swimming in the morning with Sze Mun.. basically we swim for 30 mins and talk in the pool for 30 mins... lol

had lunch with these two leng chai in SD club...

L O V E

2007-10-17T22:00:00.000+08:00

What is love? I thought I know but somehow, I think I misinterpret the meaning of love, the boundary and also the duration of love.

Love is something that holds me so long in this relationship,
Love means forgiveness and I forgave my love,
Love means freedom being restricted, and we complained,
Love means trust but we broke each other’s,
Love means everything even if it is a distant love,
Love means loving you even if I can only hear your voice,
Love means staying with you even if your family doesn’t agree about me,
Love means two persons but in fact, lots more are included,
Parents, friends, siblings, third party and also our inner self,
Love means love someone with heart n soul,
Love doesn’t diverge, love only concentrate,
Love someone then you won’t hurt someone,
Love also means sacrifices,
Sacrifices your freedom,
Sacrifices your time,
Sacrifices yourself,
But in return, you’ll get love,
If the return is sufficient or more than you expected, your sacrifices is worthwhile,
One shall not be greedy,
To have love and freedom at the same time,
Love means you won’t make her cry,
Love means you will protect her heart just like how you protect yours,
If it aches, you feel double of the pain,
You don’t want yourself to be hurt, so you won’t hurt the one you treasure.

This is what I know about love.
I feel it less and less in our relationship,
Doesn’t want to talk about it and avoid to magnify it, but somehow, we just feel it,
Me and you just feel it.

You said you will marry me,
You said you only love me,
You said you only want me,
But less than a week, you have a new girl in your arms, on your bed,
And you are telling her “I love you”,
And this is love…

Sorry, I can’t help but to think about the question, how much you love me, and how much you love your new girlfriend.

I only believe in one thing, which I think it won’t be wrong,
When you love someone so madly, so deeply, when you are so in love with one person,
When you are with the one that you treasure the most,
When you are with the one that you think you want to spend your lifetime with,
When you are so afraid to lose her in your life,
You will do anything to get her closer to you,
You will do anything to have her with you,
You will never do anything that hurts her,
Because you don’t want to push her away,
This is what I believe…

Might not be right, but it does have some logic in it isn’t it..

okok.. this is not what i am facing right now.. i am having a good relationship with my bf now.. this is just something i wrote some time ago.... mmm... ya... wasn't very happy rite? love really means something, something that we should handle with care and treasure the most, may it be love from ur love one or parents or friends or brother or sister.. just treasure while you still can...

another side of Sze Mun

2007-10-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

called Sze Mun with my mum's phone in the afternoon, didn't know she call back and ask who called her just now... and then we discover another side of Sze Mun... lol....

Sze Mun: Hello, who called me just now?
Mummy: Huh?Mau cari siapa?
Sze Mun: .... ....
Mummy: hello? 你要找谁? 你是谁?
Sze Mun: I am Miss CHAN...
somebody called me with this number just now. i just call to see who called me..
Mummy: I don't know..
Sze Mun: .................
(wanting to get into the lift but can't put down the phone-out of frustration)
aiyah... nvm lah... i don't want to know ad....

hahahhahahaha.... this is so funny... my mum didn't mention this to me and i know this when i call Sze Mun later in the evening...

hahhahaha.... she was like, "Oh.. u r the one who called me just now.. aiyah.. die.. i called back n i think is ur mum who answered the phone... and i think i was quite rude just now.... don't tell her i call k.... remember ar... don't say i am the one who call back.. don't let her know k......"

hahahahah.... can't stop laughing when she said that.... see la, Sze Mun ar.. haiihhh.......

99 QUESTIONS

2007-10-17T13:12:00.000+08:00

01.Your name = beeyam
02.Hobbies = swimming /travelling / reading
03.Gender = female
04.religion = Christian
05. School / work = books & works
06. Height = never want to know... ( lol )
07. Horoscope = Scorpio
08. Address = Rawang
09. Email = beeyam@hotmail.com
11. Hair colour = black
12. Eye colour = very dark brown
3. Skin colour = er... fairer than indian, darker than ang mo
14. Right or left handed = right
15. Status = not available for the moment but not married yet.. =)
17. Last 5 digit of your mobile no= *****42794
18. When's your Birthday = 13 November 1984
19. favor place = any place that i've nv been to..
21. Tried smoking = one and the only puff when i was i primary, nv wan to try again....
22. Drink alcohol = nope..
23. Been hurt emotionally = of course...
24. Kept a secret from anyone = who doesn't?
26. Colour = white
27. Food = unhealthy food (lol) coz taste much better..
28. club = 4 times
29. Number = 13
30 . Cartoons = too many lah
31. actor = er.........
32. Song = varies as time passes....
33. Movie = er........
34 . Subject = Maths..
35. band = used to be BSB and The Moffats during secondary time

RIGHT NOW...
36. Wearing = Jeans and V-neck shirt
37. Hairstyle = ponytail
38. Looking at = screen
39. Thinking of = when is this going to finish?
40. Listening to = MixFM

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...
41. Love = yupe
4 2. Faith = yes
43. Yourself = er... yeah
44. Ghosts = damn scare if ghost k...
45. Angels = yes.. coz i would like to be one...

IN THE LAST 24 HOURS...
46. Worn jeans = yeah...
47. Cleaned your room = nope...
48. cried = nope...
49. met someone new = nope...
50. Last person I talk to on the phone= mummy..

LOVE LIFE...
51. Do you believe in love = yes
52. Have a secret admirer = nope
53. Do you wanna get married = yes
55. How old you wanna be when you getmarried = 24 is the ideal age, but i'm ad 23 tis yr....
56. How old you wanna be when you haveyour kid? = dunno
57. How many kids do you want?? = 2/3
58. Would you have kids before marriage= nope...
59. Do you have a Crush = nope..
60. What do you want most in a relationship = love

62. Kiss or hug = both
63. Summer or winter = summer
64. Sunny or rainy = sunny
65. Chocolate or vanilla = choc
66. Hanging out or chillin = isn't it the same?
67. Music or TV = both
68. Hamburger or Pizza = pizza
69. Smile or Laughing = both
70. Sleeping or eating = both
71. Mc Donald's or KFC = KFC
72. Silver or gold = silver
73. Sunset or sunrise = sunrise
74. On phone or in person = in person
75. Diamonds or Pearls = diamond
76. Adidas or puma = adidas
77. Band members or models = models
78. Local or international Artis= international
79 . sneakers or boots = sneakers
80. Jack daniels or Chivas Regal = dunno...
81. Dunhill or Malboro = none
82.clubbing or live music = both
83 . Johnny depp or Brad Pitt = Brad Pitt
84 . angelina Jolie or Kate Hudson = Angelina Jolie
85. colosal/epic or romantic comedy= romantic
86. BMW or Ferarri =BMW
88. incubus or maroon 5 = Maroon 5
90. long haired or bald = duh..
91. pop or rock = both
92. beach or mountain = beach
93. Pink or Black = pink
94. nokia or ericsson = sony
95. 311 or hoobastank = hoobastank
96 . Asia or America = both
97. tattoo or piercing = piercing
98. asia or eropa = both
99. asking / answering = both

just for fun...spend around 10-15 minutes for this during work... is not exactly 99 questions, some q are missing...

Häagen-Dazs All You Can Eat @ Bangsar Village II

2007-10-09T15:53:00.000+08:00

was told by sze mun about this, is a must try isn't it?

super great deal, but too bad it is not available on Sat, Sun or public holidays....

BEWARE of its * Terms & Conditions..... <>

Available at Häagen-Dazs Bangsar Village II for dine-in orders only till 31 October 2007. Available from Monday to Friday, from 10.30am to 10pm. Not available on Saturday, Sunday and/or Public Holidays. Buffet promotion at RM33.90 (for adults) per person, RM29.90 (for children aged 12 and below). All prices subject to service charge and prevailing government taxes. Strictly no sharing allowed. Selection of flavours and toppings as stated on buffet menu and subject to availability. You may consume as much as you want, however, any wastages will be charged by the scoop. Not valid with other offers, discounts, promotions, Super Premium Card privileges and CORP/ENT/Complimentary Gift Vouchers. HD Marketing & Distribution Sdn Bhd reserves the right at any time in its absolute discretion to cancel or modify this promotion or any part there of including the right to amend, add to, delete or vary the terms and conditions of this promotion without prior notice.

Just swallow every scoop you take!

- B E E Y A M -

2007-10-05T21:42:00.000+08:00

haha.... this is what i do when i was waiting for my mum in the car....

it was very hot in the car.. the weather is killing me....

sweating.....

2007-10-03T15:37:00.000+08:00

the weather these days is really hot...

i just bathed and i am already sweating...

selfish

2007-10-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

Selfish is wat we see among all people around us now... not only with the people around us, but in fact is in us as well.. i guess it is just something naturally inhabited in every one of us, but whether selfish itself continues to develop and conquer us is very much depends on the educations, the environment, family background and also people around us...

People getting more selfish when they are surrounded with people who are also selfish, in a way, just to protect themselves from being bullied, from being cheated, from being doing more jobs that are not within what they should do.. but this is definitely not an excuse...

I really don’t understand how these people survive in their own world? They are very much self-centered and whatever they think or do is for the benefits of themselves and themselves only... they couldn’t give a damn to people around them, may it be their friends or what they claimed their best friends... I don’t know how you treat your so-called best friend, but I appreciate my friends a lot, whether is normal friends or best friends...

How can someone only think of themselves at the expense of others? When someone already knew what she says is going to hurt or is going to sounds like she is an idiot but she just do it because she wants it... Ignore other’s feelings as long as I get what I want, I know you are going to feel bad but I don’t care, because it benefits me, then fine... how can these people survive in their career, their relationship, their life?

I think this is something about balance.. who is not selfish isn’t it? But it depends on what situation you are in and what you are actually dealing with... we often make decisions that benefits most although sometimes our decisions might hurt one or two…but that’s the best we can do, the balance.. but some people only bother about themselves, putting others down… I do not understanding and very confuse with these people, they are living in their very much protected world, living in there is-for-my-own-good principle and claimed that they are right when they knew they are hurting others..

Please, don’t tell your friend that she/he is your best friend when you are thinking of only urself all the time.. friends are not like that, friends are not something that you should take for granted...wake up or be shame on urself...

HAPPY BiRTHDAY MY LOVE

2007-09-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to Audrey,
Happy Birthday to you!!

I know you are going to make many wishes, so may all ur wishes come true....

Teng's Party

2007-09-23T21:58:00.000+08:00

invited to Teng's birthday party, so we went...

it was fun sitting down and chatting with my lovely colleagues again... i worked there since year 2002 or 2003, kinda long right? some of us work part-time like me, and some work as a full-time nurse.. i dare not say we know each other very well, but we've been thru many ups n downs together, may it be in our relationships or when we face problems from our work, college, assignments or stress from our family... we even cry together when we were in Langkawi, how silly....but we all remember it for a long long time isn't it?

erm.... i appreciate the friendship that we built together... we ought to search for different things in our life as time goes by... different jobs, different aims... maybe we'll leave this place we work soon, maybe....but our friendship will last, and will last for a long long time... i believe...

yeah.. she is the birthday girl... haha...

nurses...(Fong, where r u?)

joyee and bee

will update more often....

2007-09-15T00:16:00.000+08:00

hahahaha... sorry sorry, always feel lazy to update my blog, wanted to write things down everytime after i come back from vacation or nice food, but when i sit down at home then i feel lazy again... I'm still using dial-up connection at home, pai seh pai seh....

ok... went Penang last week with my boyfren, he have go there to do some works and i was just there for fun and to accompany him... we didn't manage to try delicious Penang food there because we do not know the way, wat a waste!! But we get to eat seafood at Butterworth on our way back to KL. We also went to the beach at Batu Feringgi, just to sit on the beach, enjoy the breeze and also a foot massage... hehe... is my first and my last time trying foot massage, it is painful, it hurts.... The lady said i didn't sleep well and i didn't drink enough water... =(

watching sunset while waiting for seafood...

erm..... and i went to my fren's shop on Thursday, wanted to do manicure but eventually i lend her my face for make-up and also my hair... here are the photos...

looks nice isn't it...

looks pretty too from the front... lol..

i prefer the first hair style than this one..

for a second i thought i am looking at A-mei, 张惠妹.. hahahaahha.....

Cutest Mobile Phone I've Ever Seen

2007-08-22T00:07:00.000+08:00

Was working in clinic the other day and saw this new technology... lol...

and yes, this is a mobile phone! a mobile phone with no numbers no screen and yet u can make calls and receive calls as well... the SIM card is hidden somewhere inside this mini bear...

You can only dial the four preset numbers... is very useful for small little kids isn't it? and most people will see this as a toy rather than a phone rite? Price is around RM 300-400..

Isn't it cute and creative?

-threaten-

2007-08-09T13:56:00.000+08:00

make a police report this morning...

never want to make thing worse, but he called and threaten me last night...

we'll see who is being threaten this time..

还要多久？

2007-08-08T09:01:00.000+08:00

凌晨 2.00, 又一次得跑了出來。。。。。

頭腦一片空白, 只知道害怕。。。。。打從心里面的恐惧。。。

这样一来，有得耗上一段时间。。。又要战战兢兢的。。。。。

我时常告诉自己，也时常用同一句勉励我的朋友，“无论雨下多久，无论有多大雨，不怕的，总有一天雨会停的。。你又看过不会停的雨吗？只是。。。。。。。。。有时，雨下得特别久而已，总有一天会有大太阳的。。。。。”

也曾经朋友告诉我说，“Bee Yam, 很多年前你就说过这句话了，为什么我们的生活还是一样？”

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

是我一直用同样的话安慰自己，令自己好过一点吧！

Wei Ken's handphone

2007-06-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

Went One Utama for shopping today.. notice that I’ve been wearing the same clothes every week, I think is time to add new clothes to my wardrobe…

Spent 3 hours shopping but didn’t get to buy a single thing….. no new clothes, no new bags, no new shoes, no new jewellery, no new toys…. ….. Planning for another shopping next week…. Hehehe…..

yam cha with Wei Ken, King Soong and Sze Mun just now…. Hing Chun was supposed to come but he didn’t show himself, and we left early..... Sze Mun and I was very very surprise to see this Wei Ken’s new handphone…. Should I say it is “new”?? erm…. no doubt that the handphone is a new one but the style is simply… erm… ancient….. hahahaha….

We are all looking forward to have the slimmest phone, but this new handphone of his is like, erm…. 15 cm x 5cm x 5cm (use ur ruler)…… is the old old “dai ko dai” that our father carries, which is much more durable than any other handphone that we have now.. … no worries if you accidentally or purposely throw it on the floor, not like the handphones we have now, fragile….. and guess what?? His handphone has a 1.3mega pixels camera k…… hahahahaha…..Sze Mun’s NOKIA handphone doesn’t even have a camera … haihhh…. lol……. His new handphone was bought from China, costs around RM 500…and its brand name is “HOUWA”

the Dai Ko Dai

just sleepy

2007-06-14T23:45:00.000+08:00

wanted to take a nap at around 7.30pm, feel extremely sleepy...

slept till 11pm... will continue to sleep if i didn't make that call just now...

and now, stay awake........

PiCs ThAt ReCaLL MemORiES

2007-06-14T12:46:00.000+08:00

Audrey said this is GRAVITY reaction

and i won this game....

yea.... SHE's THE MAN...

That's me!! That's me!!

-FONDUE-
This is what we see from the menu...

and this is what we had.... erm.... not worth the price at all...

Cooked this during CNY... is easy to cook and taste fantastic.. Wanna try?

Jack bought me this with RM3.50 during CNY.. so EXPENSiVE...and so sweet....

SweETiEsSSS...Forgot who took this pic for us but it looks pro with sunlight as the background...

it's raining...

2007-04-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

is raining outside there....

with lightnings...

and "blooong.... blooong.... blooooong...

i'm scared....

somehow da rain remind me of something.. was during the afternoon when the sky was dark, it was going to rain.. we all sit in the classroom listening to our teacher's teaching..

suddenly, i saw flashes of light, assuming it would be the lightnings, i covered both my ears quickly and waited for the noise...

one second...
two seconds...
three seconds...
four seconds.....

ey? how come so long one huh??

and how come the lightnings never go off...

it won't go off because it is not lightnings actually, someone on the lights because it was too dark to read...

DiSOBEY RUKUN NEGARA

2007-04-17T11:51:00.000+08:00

Went to clinic as usual today, is a Monday morning, usually clinic will be crowded on Mondays because clinic is closed on Sundays.

Parked my car n went into my crowded clinic, I didn’t pay for the parking as usual…. This is wat I usually do: park my car, walk straight into my clinic and pay for parking later, or I’ll wait until I see MPS ppl patrolling then i’ll rush out to pay… I know I’m lazy, reluctant to pay when I reach my clinic, I am just .. lazy….. but most of the time my colleague will pay for me when she goes out.

So, today, when I was dispensing medicine, some ppl outside there with blue uniforms caught my eyes, they were patrolling and one of them was walking towards the direction of my car. I quickly ran out to pay at the machine while my colleague was trying to help to stop the malay gal to put a saman on my car.

My colleague was complaining to me that the malay gal’s attitude was bad, I was holding the ticket in my hand while the malay girl is concentrating on the little machine on her hand. The conversation between them was something like tat:

My fren : sorry sorry.. tunggu kejap ar… sorry sorry
The malay gal : pukul berapa kamu masuk kerja? Engine sudah sejuk ni.
My fren : ini kawan punya kereta. saya tak tau la, kita masuk kerja tak sama masa
punya..saya tak tau dia masuk kerja pukul berapa…
The malay gal :pukul berapa dia masuk kerja
(she keep repeating the same question, my fren already fatt mang zhang)
My fen : tak apa la, u saman saja
The malay gal : sekarang u mau cabar saya ??!!! saya cuba bagi peluang tapi u sikap macam ini (she asked angrily and LAN-Si-ly & she doesn't look like wantin to give
chance at all)
My fren : (knowing that the malay gal will not tolerate) tak apa la, u saman saja, thank you

For ur information, one does not need to pay if his/her parking ticket time is within 5 minutes from the time his/her car kena saman. So, knowing that I can save my RM 30, I just let her print whatever that she wants to print. At the same time, my colleague looked at her name tag and jot down her name “FAZILAH”, thinking that we might want to complain about her attitude:

First : The very first thing that we do is apologize but she did not accept.
Second : I know I disobey the law by not paying for my car’s parking when I first arrived at the parking… ok.. so is my fault, I will pay the saman but why must u say “sekarang u mau cabar saya??” somehow this sentence sounds threatening to me, so I think I should at least take down her name, just in case, and also for complaining purposes.

THE BEST PART
After she put that little paper on my car, we went back to clinic and do our work as usual.
After around 30 minutes, when I was also dispensing medicine at the counter, I saw one van, a MPS van stopped right in front of my clinic. There are 2 questions in my mind at that time:
1. I thought they just came to this area to give saman, why come back?
2. Are they coming to look for me?? My hearts say, “quite impossible”

And u know what, impossible was what in my mind but they proved me wrong when I saw a few of them looking at my car, like i am hiding some sort of illegal drugs or weapon in my car and came into the clinic. Please imagine, my clinic is crowded with patients, and these two malay men came in and stand at the counter asking “siapa punya kereta itu 1612?” They caught everybody’s attention and some aunties and uncles are surrounding the counter, and some are pretending that they are not listening.

Honestly, I was scared when I saw the both of them. But we did nothing wrong, and they started to question us. Two men, one in white, one in blue. They asked us questions like "kenapa tak bagi parking?" "kenapa mau tulis nama budak saya?" "buat apa mau tulis nama budak saya?" .. hey adults, don't you know tat we hav the right to look at ur name tag when u are performing ur duty? one of the purpose why u r wearing ur name tag is for us to know who are you so that we can thank or complain abt ur services or attitudes. Then they started to scold us for our attitudes, for not paying for parking and also "cari gaduh" with their budak.

The man in white even gave us lecture... excuse me, i am an adult, dun give me lecture here, dun ask me question like "u pernah pergi sekolah?" "u pernah baca rukun negara?"... your budak didn't follow rukun negara "KESOPANAN DAN KESUSILAAN" and now you are asking me question like this. All they trying to say is we are wrong, and whatever their budak do is correct.. Please question your budak properly before questioning me here using ur power instead of justice. You are here to tell me i am wrong instead of asking me what happened... besides, your budak still gave me a saman, i have to pay for the saman after all, that's all, why come in here to talk to us like tat??

The man in blue uniform, looks like he is the head of the team, talked at least more politely than the one in white, but he was also trying his very best to tell us that we are wrong for copying down his budak's name and not paying for parking. Sir, you already gave me a saman for what i've done, and now what u want? he became aggresive as my colleague tried to defend herself. Check out the video and you'll know.. he wanted to throw a stapler at my colleague when she was trying to capture a pic of them. Don't be afraid if you or your budak did nothing wrong. He kept asking, erm.... not asking but forcing us to delete the video immediately, but.. hahahahah... sorry, this is a show for everybody. and i remember him saying, " buang gambar itu, u mau saya susah, saya pun boleh buat kamu susah..." is this a form of threatening? yes!!!!! he threatened me and i am writing here in my blog so if anything happened to me, u should know why....

People in Malaysia, haihhh..... haihhhhhhh........... disappointment, anger, and rukun negara.. to nowhere...

By the way, anyone bother to give saman to those people who parked their cars outside the mosque which cause a mess to the traffic around the mosque every Friday?

Suprise Party

2007-04-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

Hey hey... for those who are attending Mun Chiew's party this coming Friday, please come on time k because this is suppose to be a SUPRISE party... Daphanie sent me a map yesterday night and gave some directions as well...

Just an indicator, look out for klcc and nikko hotel. After nikko hotel, there will be a traffic light, just continue going straight. from there onwards, you will be able to see the holiday villa building by looking up. the hotel is on the right (if u are coming from KLCC-Nikko hotel)

c ya there! hugzZz

daphanie

Pics for Jan 07

2007-02-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

YAM CHA @ SPiCY HARTAMAS

in a mini.....

26th Jan-NiGHT @ LaySye's...

me - chi yng - pei shan

27th Jan 2007

This is wat we called "有义气"....

These are "义气仔女"...

The Princess

The GiRLssSss

The AnGeLssSss

DiNNER NiGHT

While I'm on my way......

During the Dinner.....

As promised, pics will be up soon… took me so long to upload these pics due to my dial-up connection… lots more nice pics but I think this is more than enough to let u guys know what had happened last month…. Jan is good month, Feb will be a better month… hopefully…. Hehehe……

All In January

2007-01-31T14:19:00.000+08:00

phew..... is the last day of January today.. finally have time to sit down at home to blog...so many things happened in January, do not want to miss out any occasion in my blog for January..

Let's start with the 1st of January... the new year of 2007 started when i was shouting 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and laughing happily while enjoying the fireworks @ The Curve. It was the best fireworks i've ever seen.... is just right in front of my eyes, up in the sky, but so near to me, it was big, it was colourful with various patterns... each loud explosion followed by the "wah.." and "wow..." from the crouds including me.... people are dancing and laughing happily... so, the starting of year 2007 was just great, there must be more greater things throughout the year of 2007.. *smile*

then, the 5th of January, a SSB gathering @ Spicy Hartamas.... quite a number of us were there, 20? even Nazihah, Diyana and, er..... aiya.. i forgot her name... sorry sorry.... they were there as well... we were chatting and eating...... and chatting.. hahaha... wat else can u do at mamak? i would say it was a fun night as well especially seeing those who just got back from Australia and going back soon.... is always good to see old friends and to hear news from them....not forgetting seeing Mun Chiew's brand new CooperS.. me, Fang Shyuan and Wei Chuan can't wait to get into his mini and took a few pics with it.... i wan a mini also....

The following week i was busy preparing and buying stuffs for my new house in Rawang.. yes, i will be moving to Rawang.. er.... i already moved to Rawang actually.. hehehe... am happy to stay in my new house, didn't buy many new furnitures nor electrical appliances due to the budget i hav, but it is good enough, i have my room with everything i wan.. hehe.... we moved into the new house on the 14th, is was a tiring day keeping and putting the stuffs at the right place... suppose to shift on the 27th instead of 14th, but is a good news isn't it? now i can attend Lay Sye's wedding on the 27th.....

alright.. wat's next... let me check.. hahahahahahaha.. do u know how i remember all these important dates and things that happened? simple... is merely because i am smart and i have super good memory.... hahahahahhahaha...... is actually because of the pics i took on these special occasion... with my new phone, i tried to take photos wherever i go, i was scrolling down my photo folders to check wat happened during the month of January.... hehe....

ok.... the next one would be buffet at Lay Sye's house on the 26th of Jan... as predicted, LaySye and Steven will get married first among our friends.... wasn't suprise to hear the good news from them.. the girls already discussing wat to wear and to have wat hairdo on their big day a month before the wedding.... hahaha... these are girls... we are girls... hehehe..... 26th Jan, the girls went to LaySye's house while the guys gathered at Steven's place... nothing much happened that night, in fact, the buffet ended quite early, people started leaving around 9.30pm and the caterer left at 10pm.... we were there taking photos, chatting and again discussing the clothes, or gowns that we will wear on their wedding dinner.... went back straight to Sze Mun's house and had a good sleep there...

Now, 27th of January, the girls reached Lay Sye's house before 8 am..... everyone looks great, looks beautiful and nicely dressed, but no one looks better than the bride... she is just so pretty, so cute, so adorable.... she is just like a princess, a lovely princess... can't imagine that this fren of mine who i knew since we were in primary standard 3 is getting married today.. everyone says that she looks like a princess with the small little crown on her hair.... she is just beautiful.... Steven and his hengDai-hangDai sekalian reached at around 9am and they horned like no tomorrow, it makes everyone smile... all the hengDai looks smart and handsome, waiting to back-up the groom if anything happens.... Steven who claims that he can't sing sang a song for LaySye, is actually LaySye's idea, we were just following wat she wanted from her husband... the while process was noise and fun.... Then at the church, i can't believe that it was so touching when i saw LaySye walking into the church, with her father, along the red carpet with her bridesmaid and 2 cute little flower girl, Odelia and Ohanna...and i must say this again, she is so pretty..... it makes the girls want to get married as well... haha...

and then the wedding dinner, which was on yesterday night.... most of us brought our partner along, all walked in with nice dresses and pretty hairdo, everyone looks like a bride-to-be, hehe... it was a fun night introducing boyfrens and girlfrens to frens..and also the never ending photo sessions.. the drinking and all the "yam-sheng" and also a touching speech from Steven, he promised that he will give happiness to his wife, LaySye.. i will make sure my husband say that as well... hahahaha.... some of them gave sexy lingerie as a gift to the lovely couple and they want to make sure the bride will giv a suprise to the groom... hahaha...there and then ends the dinner yesterday.... is a memorable night....

Then, today, me sitting here blogging.. hehe..... feel hungry now... photos will be up soon k.... not forgetting, once again, happy birthday to my brother and wei chuan.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2007-01-31T12:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPT BIRTHDAY TO WEI CHUAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KEAM HO
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

31st of January, wish the both of you Happy Birthday and Happy Always.......

--lots of hugssss--

First Christmas Dinner-1st Dec 2006

2006-12-14T14:37:00.000+08:00

Prepared by Joseph Chua & SiMone Chan (BellaRome's future boss)

Sze - Bee - Ting

This christmas tree is decorated by Chan Sze Mun... haha....

离家

2006-12-09T02:02:00.000+08:00

离家出走已经有七个星期了。。。

有没有人知道我这七个星期是怎样过的？

到处流浪的滋味你试过了吗？每天夜一黑就要想 : “今天要到谁的家睡呢？” “今天要在那儿洗澡呢？” “今天要和谁吃饭呢？” “明天要带哪一件睡衣出门呢？” “朋友会不会介意我霸占了他二分一的床呢？”

每一夜入睡前就会想：“妈妈睡觉了吗？弟弟呢？” “家里的一切都还好吗？” “没有了我他们也一样过得很好吗？” “他们有没有也在想念我呢？” “他们会不会渐渐忘了我呢？”“有我没我都一样吗？”。。。。会想念我的床，我的被，我的房间，我的书桌，我的衣橱。。。。。也会想念家的感觉。。。。。

对家里的四个个人来说，他们失去了一个我；对我而言，我失去了他们四个。感觉上我和妈妈，弟弟和哥哥都不再那么亲近了。。。感觉上，他们好像都不一样了，好像被疏远了。。。可以想象弟弟和哥哥在家玩PS2，好开心。。。可以想象妈妈和他们聊天，也好开心。。。。可是，这些画面里头都少了我。。。。我在哪里？好心疼的，你懂吗? 你们会明白吗？会了解吗？

我必需忍受自己一个人作战，忍受每一晚睡觉前的孤独，忍受一个人时的害怕，忍受家人都不在我身边的孤单，忍受他们都没有不要贡献的事实。。。。忍住眼泪对我来说也是一项挑战，不敢哭，害怕一哭会哭得不可收拾，怕会崩溃，最多也只是静静的不出声，保持沉默才可以把眼里的眼泪吞回肚子里去。。。这样的生活你以为我很想过吗？这样的日子你以为很好玩吗？很容易忍受吗？你们要试试看吗？

我随时都可以到回家去，那我就不会寂寞了啊！就算再苦，也有其他家人陪我一起苦啊！离家是因为他的所作所为已到了我无法忍受的地步了。。。离家也是因为要让他知道不是每一给人都必须听他的，让他无理由的发脾气，我要让他看清楚，他这样的态度，就算他是爸爸，一样有人会反他。。。。离家后的两个星期他果然发疯了，打电话骂我的朋友，到我做工的地方找我麻烦，结果，妈妈也离家出走了，但也只是维持了四天三夜，过后，我又回到了一个人的生活。。。。现在，他暂时不再那么放肆了，因为在这样下去，他就得自己一个人了，不再放肆是因为他也怕孤单。。。。。

在这个时候我是不是该回家了呢？我不知道，至少我已经很努力的去做一些改变了，我真的努力了，努力的克制自己想回家的念头。。。。现在回家会不会令所有的东西打会原形呢？那是不是代表我以后都不要回家呢？

我真的尽力了。。。我的心在痛时你们知道吗？我一个人哭时你们懂吗？我的用心你们明白吗？我也想赶快解决掉它，但只有我一个人在努力是，请给我一点时间可以吗？给我一些鼓励可以吗？离家七个星期不是什么大事，可是对我来说，这七个星期里发生了多少事情你们懂吗？我要面对多少挣扎你们知道吗？没有鼓励的话也算了，不要再过来告诉我：“七个星期so what? 就算是七天，七十天，或是七个月都是一样的啦！你还不是一样会回去的。想这样多做什么，不用离家出走了啦，现在就回家吧！”

GiRLs iN LAnGkAWi

2006-12-07T11:18:00.000+08:00

-LANGKAWI LAGOON RESORT-

-THE ROOM-

-me and watson-

Mei Guan-Mint-Bee

Sanli-Bee-Joyee-Mei Guan

Dinner @ Unkaizan restaurant

DOME

2006-11-21T11:32:00.000+08:00

went Australian High Commission with ah yee and ah jun to apply ah jun's Visa.. Aus High Comm allows Jun to stay in Australia for a period of 3 months... =) is a good news for them...They are able to celebrate Christmas and Chinese New Year with their family this time.. i wanna be there too... but Audrey is coming back during December, almost everybody is back end of the year, so why should i be there? hmm.... then i shall go there some other time rite.... =)
after the Visa thingy, me, ah yee and ah jun went KLCC for lunch at DOME... is my first time there and the food is delicious... always thought that DOME is just an ordinary coffee shop but it does have good food as well...

ah jun & me... (forgot to mention, Jun is my cousin..)

@ DOME

-ah yee & ah jun-

Jun & me again...

Chocolate Caramel Crunch...yummy yummy...

ah yee had Catch of The Day

Jun had Fish & Chips

I had Creamy Seafood Spaghetti

hehe... tis is another pic i took with Sze Mun when we were having lunch at Segambut after swiiimmiiiing~~~

KAORI YAMAMOTO AUTO PARTS SDN BHD

2006-11-21T10:56:00.000+08:00

Done by : Lim Fang Shyuan

21/10/06 - 25/10/06

2006-10-26T16:13:00.000+08:00

suppose to post tis up long time ago.. delayed due to my laziness and also because i was too tired after coming home everyday...

ok.. let's start from 21/10/06 to 23/10/06...reached Langkawi around 10am in the morning.. rent a Wira which costs RM 80 per day, which i considered it cheap especially during public holidays. Went straight to our 5 stars hotel-Langkawi Lagoon Hotel, was looking foward to see our hotel and it didn't disappoint us at all..

We were all excited and waiting for more funs to come, and i suggested to go Seven Well Waterfall. We left all our considered-expensive-handphones in the safety box in our hotel, i brought my sling bag along, and Fong brought her bag as well..The gals put their IC and liciense in Fong's bag with some money as well... We have to climbed around 550 stairs up to the waterfall, which is very very tiring.. we were having lots of fun there, Mint fell down twice when she was trying to walk on the slippery rocks. Then this Mei Guan went up the rocks to take the camera from Fong's bag and found that the bag is GONE!! yes, is G.O.N.E...

Let me tell you wat we put in tat bag.. RM 1800 cash, a Canon Camera, a pendrive, a bottle, four shirts, 4 person's IC and liciense, ATM cards, credit cards, expensive purse, Fong's love letters and also our Wira's car key... Only Fong's bag is stolen, my sling bag lies peacefully on the rocks, must be because i only put 10 bucks in my bag.. lol...

It was raining when we were waiting for our spare key to come.... haihh... spent 2 hours in the police station to make 4 reports, 2 hours for 4 reports!! all because of its DOT-DOT-DOT-DOT-DOT matrix printer...and we were charged RM 10 for the lost key, which i considered it reasonable.

i tell u lor, Langkawi is a black listed place from now on, the last time i went there with Audrey and gang, we lost cash RM 1000 and 2 expensive handphones.. That was worse, the theive/s went into our chalet when we were all asleep... Damn stoned lor, no one noticed anything until the next morning Fang Shyuan shouted, "ey.. where is my handphone la.. i left it on the TV before i sleep.." Then Hing Chun said his handphone is lost too.. then King Soong shouted, "Where is the 500 that i took out from ATM yesterday???!!" Then all 9 of us sat there, kept quiet and u should look at our faces that time...is so funny.... but we did have a great time there.. HOWEVER, Langkawi is now black listed...

The next day, we cancelled our island-hopping and went around the town.. bought liquor and cigarette and some chocolates of course... Went to a restaurant near the jetty and our lunch was Free-Of-Charge... hahahaha..... one of the waiter paid for us this time...

That night, we got ourselves drunk by playing some silly games.. Fong thrown up first and it was really really disgusting, i have a video for that and i shall earn a fortune for that right Poon Lai Fong?? hahahaha.... Then everyone started to vomit as well.... ya.. i know is disgusting but it was fun at the same time... it is unforgetable for everyone of us.. =)

alrite.. i think that's all for Langkawi.. on the 24th of October, went Genting Highland with a bunch of frens... It was blaaa-dy cold, raining.... it was my first time trying the Flying Coaster, it is a new game in Theme Park, you will have to stand on something that will turn and you will lie 180 degree facing the floor and the roller coaster starts to fly... is interesting, you should try it.. oh ya... one ride is charged at RM 10.

hmmm.. where did i go on the 25th? oh.. went to my fren to watch tv and went out for food.. can't remember exactly wat i did on tat day...

however.... it was a fun, erm... in fact, a very fun and exciting holiday...

Happy Holiday..

2006-10-20T14:38:00.000+08:00

hey hey.. is going to be a 5 days holiday starts from tomorrow..

and me and my clinic colleagues, all six of us will be going Langkawi tonite...

a 3 days 2 nights trip... yupe... is sponsored by my beloved doctor...5 stars hotel.. i forgot the name, tell you when i come back k..

i remembered the last time i went Langkawi was with AUdrey, Sze Mun, Joseph, Wei Ken, hing Chun, Fang Shyuan, King Soong, Pek Yan... did i miss out anyone? That was a few years ago.. and i told myself tat i will not take bus to Langkawi anymore becoz 7-8 hours sitting in the bus is damn suffering lor!! and the bus driver only let us out to the toilet ONCE! i dare not drink water no matter how thirsty i was.. and i can't really fall asleep when i was in the bus.. it was freezing cold and the air-cond blew directly to my nose, and sleeping in the bus isn't comfortable at all...

BUT, haihh.... we still need to take bus tis time.. wish me luck then... actually we plan to take Piriton (Flu tablet) if we can't sleep nicely in the bus... wahahaha...

Happy Holiday!

my uncle

2006-10-05T16:37:00.000+08:00

phew....... ....... ......

finally hav some time to sit down and blog abt wat happened in the past few weeks.

my uncle (my mom's brother) was lost on the 13th August 2006... He went out in the evening and never come home again. My uncle is a diabetic patient, which means that he has to come home to take insulin injection everyday, twice a day and u should know how important is insulin to diabetic patients. My grandparents found his IC and liciense left on the table in his room, which makes them feel more n more worried.

Reported his lost to the police the next day, and my grandparent went to almost every hospitals and police stations to search for him. But nothing is found. So all they can do is sit at home and wait and look at the papers everyday. My grandma even went to the temple to ask "God" whether he/she knows where is her son.

Five days past...On the 18th August 2006-Monday, a policeman came to my grandparents house and told them tat they found my uncle's car. A cleaner walked pass his car which parked at Hospital Besar Kuala Lumpur and smelled some odour coming out from tat car. His body was found in his car boot.

Quickly cancelled my tuition tat night and rushed to my grandparent's house with my family members. I can feel the sadness when i stopped my car in front of the house. Before stepping into the house, i can hear my grandma crying, so hard, never hear her cry tis sad before, never see her cry tis much before. haihh..... The toughest person-my grandfather also cried. Everybody was crying tat night. My uncle was murdered, it makes our hearts more painful. The pain he had to suffer before he die must be unbearable.

Sent his body back from the hospital the next day. It was a tiring day...

My relatives told me to go back to popo's house more often because they might feel much lonely now without his son at home. I did that and feel sad as well everytime i see them. Gong Gong and Po Po were trying to hide their sadness when they see us coming to his house. Heard from 'kakak' that my grandma went into the bathroom and cry every day. haihh.... my grandpa has heart disease and he stopped smoking a few months ago.. but these days, i saw him smoking everytime i see him.

They love my uncle so much so much although he is not an obedient son. He took drugs, shouted at everyone, bully everyone and so on, but he is still my uncle, and he is still their son. 'Kakak' said that she saw him 'coming home' many times. She heard him calling her but she wasn't afraid at all.

According to Chinese tradition, a dead person's spirit will come back home on the 7th day. And that night, after putting all the fruits, cakes and rice on the table, everyone went to their bedroom and kakak went to close the front door. Then she shouted, she said my uncle was just outside the house, coming in with many many 'people'. She wanted to stay in the living room so that she can asked him wat happened tat night and who murdered him, but my grandpa refuse to let her do so. Everyone must be in the bedroom, otherwise, the spirit cannot come in. Kakak said my uncle looked sad, might be because he realised that he is now dead. There was a 'thing' with a very very long tongue standing beside him and on the other side was another 'thing' wearing a very very tall hat. It sounds so real especially when kakak told us, she is a Malay, she wouldn't know or learn before that a dead person's spirit will come back with all these 'things'. I was asking my self as well "is it real?"... i really don't know. My grandpa said ,"if u believe it to be real then is real; if not, then nothing is real."

haihh.. watever it is, things ad happened and kakak never see 'him' at home again. He was a christian and i hope that he is now resting in peace in heaven. Uncle, we all love u...

the underlying truth..

2006-09-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

I guess there isn’t anything fair in this world. Whether u like it anot, man and woman doesn’t stand on the same ground, there are still things that only men are allowed to do without being cursed till death. Men can look for other pretty young chicks when they are married and find no fault in themselves at all after their wives discovered all the bullshit they did outside. And what if a woman do the same thing? Can she hide her fault by saying she is bored with the relationship like wat most men did? And she needs some sparks in her life again, can she? She will be a dirty slut around her husband’s friends, his relatives, and even her own family members, and she is most likely to be dumped after tat. But tat doesn’t happen when things come to a guy isn’t it?

I always thought this way: The world is a piece of white paper, sometimes, with some black dots which symbolizes bad people… however, not until recently, I found that the world is actually a piece of black paper, and sometimes, fill with some white spots on it. Most people I know and I tot that they are good fellas aren’t as good as I thought. They cheated on their girlfriends but at the same time acting like a gentleman in front of their friends. Trust me, they are real good in protecting their image. Is me being naïve all this while, the world isn’t so white after all…

两种人。。。。

2006-08-31T11:45:00.000+08:00

这世界上有两种人。。

第一种人，不会轻易地答应你的要求，因为他知道自己并不会将它实现。。不想给了你希望，然后才被你骂得狗血淋头。。。这种人连尝试都懒。。。

第二种人，若答应了你的事，他会至少尝试去实现。。。

很多时候，女孩要你做一件事时，她并不一定要你真的去完成它，只要你有尝试过，有用心的想去做过，她就已经很满足了。。。

比如说，女孩希望每一晚睡前要听到童话故事，第一种人会告诉她别发梦了，明天还有很多东西要做呢！第二种人也许明天也有很多东西要做，可是，他至少会尝试去告诉她一些他曾经听过的童话故事，虽然他说的故事不是很完整，也不流利，可是却装满了诚意。

其实，当女孩说要听童话故事时，她也很明白别人也有很忙的时候，她并不奢望真的可以听到童话故事的。。。结果，当第一种人连尝试的心也没有时，第二种人的出现是很惊喜，也很容易取代第一种人的。。。

两者之间。。。

2006-08-31T11:37:00.000+08:00

拥有一个有钱的男朋友，和一个很疼你的男朋友，两者之间，你会选那一个呢？

换个角度看吧！若这两个男生，是你朋友的男朋友，你会比较羡慕那一个朋友呢？会羡慕那个天天有钱花，名牌满身的朋友？还是那个每天都洋溢着幸福笑容的朋友呢？

当然，如果有一个又有钱，又疼自己的男朋友的话，那是再好不过的事了！可是这种事往往不会发生在我们这些平民身上，哈哈。。

若自己的男朋友很有钱，那么，花钱时的那种满足感是很美妙的。不必再去理会某个东西的价钱，不必去预算这个月的零钱还够不够撑到下个月，只要是喜欢的，买！同时，也可以享受贵妇般的生活，空闲时约三五知己，到咖啡店去享用下午茶，然后走走街，肚子饿了，也可以毫无牵挂的走进任何一间餐厅，然后刷卡。每一天都是美好的一天。我也很想过这些不用为钱而烦恼的生活。。

当自己的男朋友很疼惜自己时，虽然他没钱，可是你却会感觉到有钱人感觉不到的幸福，甜蜜。。。虽然口袋空空的，可是你的心是满满的，比起有钱，你更富有。。。。