相爱很难

最好 有生一日都爱下去
但谁人 能将恋爱当做终生兴趣
生活 其实旨在找到个伴侶
面对现实 热恋很快变长流细水
可惜我 不智或侥倖 对火花天生敏感
不过 两只手拉的太紧

爱到过了界那对爱人
同时亦最易变成一对敌人
也许相爱很难 就难在其实双方各有各寄望 怎么办
要单恋都难 受太大的礼会內疚却也无力归还
也许不爱不难 但如未成佛成仙也会怕爱情前途暗淡
爱不爱都难 未快乐先有责任给予对方面露欢颜
得到浪漫 又要有空间
得到定局 却怕去到终站
然后付出的多得到少不介意豁达 又担心有人看不过眼
可惜我 不智或侥倖 对火花天生敏感
不过 两只手拉的太紧

无论热恋中失恋中都永远记住第一戒 別要张开双眼


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is so true..
being in a relationship is not easy,
with different expectations from each other,
you'll ask for freedom when u have all the romance,
tie the knot and worry that's the end....

what's wrong with me?

mood swing today since morning... not a second that i feel calm, not a second that i dont feel worry.. i don't know why am i having this feelings as well...


something in my heart keep telling me something is going to happen.. and everytime i feel this, something horrible come next... no please... i am asking of peace for mind now, i have to have a good sleep tonight, i have plenty of things to do tomorrow..

my life

at times i really feel that i am lucky.. i experienced things that most people never meet in their life, and some can only be seen in drama.. i always think that i have a dramatic life, i see what most people don't see, i hear what most people will not hear in their life but i still feel i am lucky. At least thru all these things that i've been thru, i learn to be tough, i learn to be good, i learn to stand on my own, i also learn to let others depend on me, i learn hide my emotions behind because i have to, i was taught not to get married so soon because my family needs me.. I understand why they are telling me this, i don't blame them, i don't plan to get married so soon as well, because i think they still need me...

i still feel lucky, at least life is getting much better now... i am what i am today, every single things that happened in my life makes me what i am today. at least i am luckier than many many people out there. I don't drive a BMW or sports car, just a local car, but at least i am not walking on my feet everyday.. i am not carrying branded handbags but i feel contended to only have my current Esprit bag. I must say that i am easily contended, i'm glad of what i am having..

but those are not the point, sometimes i feel tired too of carrying such a burden with me everyday. Should i call it a burden? i feel bad to call it that way, erm.. is more appropriate to call it a responsibility. Often time i ask myself, how long will this go? i can't take this with me forever? I will be getting married one day, and what will happen to them? Will they be able to stay on their own? It worries me everytime i think about it. Can they handle the things that i am handling right now? Honestly, i do not have much confident towards them for now. They still gives troubles sometimes, why can't they just think more for the family, at least for themselves so that we can worry less for them.

When is the time for me to let this go?

Poppy Garden

Last Saturday we celebrated Phang's birthday at Poppy.. It was real hot and i was sweating all over although i was only sitting down and chatting with frens.. As usual, we were talking loud as the music is much louder than our voice n at the end we just listen to the music and stop chatting... my dear boy was busy walking here n there talking to long-time-no-see frens, luckily i met up with some college frens n finally enjoy myself.. =)

Birthday boy, he is single n available!

us outisde poppy,met wyechuan n his pretty gal as well..

pretty girls..lol

me & Lawrence Chin!

college frens

break up season?

or just a conincidence?

Many of my friends broke up with their beloved recently, while many having arguments as well... when i was in secondary school, me n my friends used to think that break-ups do have a season, most couple split up at tat time..

i am lucky, becoz i am still surviving well in this season... =)

and LaySye (my primary school mate) is pregnant! I know her for since year 1993, yeah, when i was still a tiny little girl.. and now she is pregnant!! and I am so happy for her...

Bye Lovely..

I found my dog dead on the road when i was on my way home.. She was lying on the road, she must be trying to cross the busy road.. I kept crying n crying.. haihh.. so sad..

I never like dogs, cats, rabbbits or any other pets, i just don't dare to touch them, i always have a feeling that they will bite.. I never touch Lovely before too, but watched her from far or run into my house whenever she is near.... I didn't spend much time playing with Lovely actually, but when i found her dead on the road yesterday, i really feel very sad..

truth hurts but...

a few days ago, i went to bed at around 10 every night, feeling tired n exhausted.. nothing much have i done but my mind just need a rest... but today is a little different, i tried to sleep but my mind is clear, so i just have to try to find something to do until i could put myself to bed...

was having this chat with my darling yesterday, one of his friend is planning for his birthday party, and this friend actually asked all his friends to come without bringing their girlfriend, the point is, he is also inviting lots of girls to this party. so the guys will have to find reasons not to bring their girlfriend along.. some cheated while my boy told me the truth yesterday.. i saw his friend cheated his girlfriend right in front of us when we yum cha yesterday night... this friend was telling his girlfriend that he is going outstation soon to do some work, and he also told me that my boyfren will be going outstation with him.. and both his girlfren and i believe, who knows they are just acting rite..

i was shocked when my boy told me it was just a lie, a lie to the girl so that she will not follow her bf to the party, she will be thinking that her bf is working somewhere else, but definitely not partying with other girls in a club. should i be scared as well? somehow i just feel so cold at heart, i'm glad he told me the truth but looking at his friends, they are just worthless.. and i believe this is not the first time they do tis. I remember telling my boyfriend to always tell the truth than saying sorry later.. a lie to lose a girlfriend? find your balance..

today is a good day..

because i just got a good news... yay!

HaPpY 2nD aNniVeRSaRy mY dEaR...

10th August

八月十日。。。。 一个多么难忘的日子，纵使过了那么久，每一年的今天都会提醒着自己有那么一个承诺，有那么一个我们的约定。。。


想一想，算一算，也有十年了吧，十年前的今天，我是最幸福的。。。 我们约定十年后，无论还有没有在一起，都要出现在这个我们开始的地方，带着我们的另一半或者单独扑约。。 应该是五年后吧，结果大家都觉得还不是时候就把约定定在十年后的这一天。。


突然觉得很难过，不是因为放不下，而是因为我们也经历了很多，也让我很清楚的知道我们的距离。。。 每一次，只要你有要求，无论任何事，我都一定尽力办到。。可是却一次又一次得让我心疼，好可怕。。。 只好又催眠自己别再为这样的一个人付出，别再浪费时间。。。可是每一次你的出现都会让我心跳停顿一下，然后又得浪费一段时间令自己冷静下来。。。 haihhh....我也不明白你到底哪里好，哪里吸引了我。。。一次又一次的跌下你的圈套，然后自己有一个人爬回出来。。。。


当自己发现约定竟然是这一年时，心里兴奋但也很落寞，知道约定终于到了，可是也知道只有自己记得，也知道会出现的应该只有自己吧。。 为什么？因为对这段过去了的感情还有感觉？还抱希望? 我也不知道。。。。 只知道等这一天等很久了，彼此鲜少联络，各忙各的，可是时常都会提醒他这一个日子，一个十年的约定真的好不容易。。 好不容易在这十年里我们还记得，我们还是朋友，曾经以为这是约定是无聊的，谁会当真呢？ 可是这一天真的来临了。。。


也许时间又不对了吧！ 我并没有像以前般的期待这一天的到来，一半是因为我现在有了另一半，并不想辜负他对我的好，一半是因为不要让自己期待太高，免得失望。。。 身边懂我们有着这一个约定的朋友都告诉我说不要傻了，不要去了。。。 他们都心疼我吧！我也怕会受伤，所以并没有想过当天会出现。。。


结果， 在另一半的陪伴下，我还是载着一个我们约定的日期出现在我们约定的地方。。 你呢？ =）朋友问我会失望吗？ erm..... 还好吧。。。 还好吧。。。。如果真的看到你的话，我也不知该怎办。。。。

七月

have been travelling up north to Taiping and Kuantan these few weeks and is pretty tired.. am really scared to stay alone at hotel, hotel are full of ah-wuu~~ omg, i can't imagine if i would have to stay in a hotel alone.. i'll make sure i am bringing someone with me if i must stay overnight there.

remember those days when i was still very young, i am so scared of ghost, chinese ghost actually, those we call "giong si",those dead people wearing long long baju with a hat and jumping here and there. I remember a scene in the movie, we must not breathe in front of a "giong si" or they will see us, so i always tahan not to breathe during night time, especially on my bed when everyone is asleep, so san fu, why was i doing tat?? lol.. i even covered my blanket until my neck, thicker on my neck actually, thinking that i might be able to prevent the "giong si" from biting me if they ever appear.. lol.. haihh...

then, as i grow up, i don't watch "giong si" movie anymore, instead, i started watchin ju-on n some other japanese ghost stories, sometimes korean stories, and i no longer scared of "giong si" now but pale women and child, covering their face with long hair. okay, i am scaring myself now, i think is enough, but those "things" do hav trend also ya..lol

Sabah

yay!! another half-sponsored trip to Sabah. Doctor paid for accommodation n airfares and the rest on ourselves. Is pretty good actually cause the big amount already covered by my doctor. hehe... thanks ya..

was pretty fun there in Sabah except the fact that we actually stayed there for 4 nights, we ran out of things to do most of the time.

catching the flight at 7am meaning leaving home at 4 something in the morning, feel like singing "4 in the morning" ? lol... slept at around 2 so u can guess how tired i was and i couldn't sleep at all in the plane.. i was feeling dizzy all the time..oh ya, i was with my glasses in the morning, seen me in glasses before? know wat, i seldom put on my glasses coz i think is ugly.. hehe...

First day in Sabah, without any plan , we took free bus to 1-Borneo (The largest shopping mall in Sabah).. and 1-Borneo is just another 1-Utama... sien right... didn't do much shopping there, bought some fresh vege n chicken fillet and u r right, we r cooking tonight!

mint-model wannabe



yummy... it tastes good! chicken with potatoes.. oh ya, the condo we stayed in was fabulous with the facilities it has. The service was good n the condo looks new.



and there it goes, the second day in KK. We spent most of our time sitting in the bus travelling from place to another, and it was not good. However, upon reaching KK park, you wil feel refreshing again. The canopy walk was fun and long and of course tiring..

Kota Kinabalu Mountain as background







Third day was the most exciting day which i waited long for. The activity planned for the day is whitewater rafting at Kiulu River. The whole journey took around 45 mins to 1 hour and trust me, is too short.. You should enjoy body rafting as well, and you just flow with the river water..The water cold although a bit dirty, just make sure you don't drink the water then i guess is fine...



4th day at Manukan Island... building sandcastle surronded by shells with these two handsome boys...
tired after 2 hours of snorkelling but fish was nowhere to be seen... so sad...

就是爱你

陶喆_就是爱你 - The most amazing bloopers are here


无论在什么时候，只要听到这首歌就会觉得很舒服。。。

我们都记得这首歌，和歌里头的意思。。

有一段时间没听了，需要灵感的时候听也很不错。。 =）

coming august..

was talking to fs about you..


we both agreed that the chances of winning toto is much more higher than u showing up on that special day...


lol...

imperfection

For a moment i thought everything is perfect..



but after all, is just that short moment that seems perfect...

a phase

"When u truly care for someone, u dun look for faults, u dun look for answers, u dun look for mistakes. Instead, u fight the mistakes, u accept the faults and u overlook the excuses."

u sure boh??

When i look at this statement, i wonder how true is this... how many of you can actually overlooking all the wrong things you've done, ignoring all the mistakes you've made, and never feel tired hearing the same excuses over and over again... i don't think i can... i don't think i ever can... i can't pretend when you've made a mistake and not to correct you. Don't want to be blindfolded in a relationship...

Feeling very emotional these few weeks... think about how we met each other, think about how we used to talk until we fall asleep holding the phone, think of how well you mix with my frens, think of the day you told me you feel much better listening to my voice after a hard day at work.. and what is happening now.. i can hardly see the romantic you again..

conversation is non other than everyday routine now, is this a phase that every relationship must go thru? I always try to giv you surprises, even more often when i realised our sparks is no longer there, or much much lesser now, but i just couldn't see you making your effort as well..

disappointment over disappointment, they just pile up like that... I don't think you realised the changes in me, i guess i hide it well.. =) wanted to ask you so many times, where is your patient? where is your passion? where is your toleration? where is my weekly bedtime story? sighhh.... i still love hugging you, at least i am still feeling you, and your eyes stares at the computer, your hands on the keyboard, what am i doing?



August 2006

XIXILI

in case you don't know, XIXILI is a bra brand, one bra costs around 45 ~ 60, depends on the material and also design. And XIXILI is having its first warehouse sales from today till this Sunday at Kota Damansara. Trust me, you are going to love it... is super attractive, XIXILI can definitely gives you the comfort you need.. Let the pictures speak for itself ya..


should hav taken a picture of the queue...

sze mun.. yeah.. another XIXILI's fan..

a box of bras and panties, hers + mine... lol

i think i can stop buying bra for tis yr and next yr... lol...

hehe.. addicted..

oh so stress

I just wish i could have more time now, if not, better memory..

But again, memory storage is definitely running low after trying so hard to put in so many things in my brain, getting harder and harder to concentrate.. might be because am nervous a little... by the way, memory storage and memory retrieval is totally difference.. i am also afraid that i couldn't recall what i store in my memory and that will definitely leads me nowhere but to great disappointment again...

Lord, do bless me in every way you can.... Amen..

Lost at this moment...