RUN AWAY FROM HOME

This is the x time i am away from home because of my father, i really hate to admit that he is my father. He is not doing his duty or carrying his responsibility at all.. and when is this going to stop? Does this has a full stop? or is a continuous non stop thingy? 5 years already and things are still the same, or getting worse, how is it going to be at the end of the day? I dare not imagine.... I dare not think of myself, my future, my marriage, my everything... it seems too far away from me, everything is just so far, i can't even see when i reach out my hands.... “乌云背后有彩虹”， “雨过会天晴”, are these true? when will this day come?? few more weeks? months or years?