Saturday, April 29, 2006


This is the x time i am away from home because of my father, i really hate to admit that he is my father. He is not doing his duty or carrying his responsibility at all.. and when is this going to stop? Does this has a full stop? or is a continuous non stop thingy? 5 years already and things are still the same, or getting worse, how is it going to be at the end of the day? I dare not imagine.... I dare not think of myself, my future, my marriage, my everything... it seems too far away from me, everything is just so far, i can't even see when i reach out my hands.... “乌云背后有彩虹”, “雨过会天晴”, are these true? when will this day come?? few more weeks? months or years?


Suppose to post this up last week, but didn't have time to do so... Last week on duno which day, me, audrey and fang shyuan looked for sze mun for lunch during her one hour lunch time. We went to some chinese restaurant to have our lunch, and these are the photos we took when we were caught in jam....

fOrEveR bEst FrIeNDs

Wednesday, April 19, 2006


wonder why i put the title "IRIS"? I am not sure as well, but Iris seems to be the one kept talking the whole dinner session... lol...

Yesterday after my check up in UH for my breast, me, audrey, sze mun, iris, adele, adele's darling and kok keat went for dinner.. We had our dinner at Wong KOk Char Chan Teng in ss2.

About the lump in my breast, Prof Yip (the doctor) said THEY ARE harmless! ya... why i say THEY ARE instead of IT IS? Let me tell you wat happened.. when a nurse called my name, i felt nervous, left my handbag with audrey n went into the room. The nurse told me to take off my shirt and lie down on the bed. Then, a Malay lady came in, a doctor i think, looked at my records and put some transparent gel on my left breast and there the ultrasound goes.. erm.... something like a roller, rolled on my breast, all i can see from the screen is ........ "darknesssssssss".. i kept tahan-ning not to laugh coz i feel geli when the thing rolled on my breast.. haha... when she said, "there, the lump, not too big, not dangerous, no worries...", relief... then she checked on my right breast as well, thought my right breast is fine, but she found a lump there as well, and is the same as the one in the left, harmless..... thank god!! haha...

ok.. back to Wong Kok, we reached there around 8pm, ordered our dinner and wait for the ladies to arrive. Audrey ordered something called "Doreamon", we waited so long looking at "Doreamon", wanted to take pic of it b4 eating. Iris was complaining that we didn't include her when taking pics, aiya.. she was sitting opposite ma...haha..Then we started chatting and fooling around... This Iris is full of jokes lor, let me write down one joke that she told yesterday:

有一天,kuar teow 和 mee hoon 吵架, kuar teow 就对 mee hoon 说:“不要再给我看到你,一定把你打一顿在丢进海里。” mee hoon 听了十分害怕,连续几天躲在家里不敢出门。 有一天,mee hoon 真得很闷也很饿,可是还是不敢出去,想了想,他只好叫他的堂弟,maggie mee 帮他出去买点东西吃,maggie mee 想了想就答应了,反正他和 kuar teow 又没有什么过节。

结果,maggie mee 出去之后,遇到了 kuar teow 。 哪知,kuar teow 对 mee hoon 说:“不要以为你电了头发,我就不认识你!” 说完,就把 maggie mee 打一顿再丢进海里。

hahahahahaha..... funny?? the best part is not the joke itself, is Iris's expressions, so cute n farny... and then, we had a lot of other jokes as well, we laughed our heads off and put back and laughed again... LOL.... She even asked us a question like this, "讲出屁股洞的三个功能。" hahaha..... do you know the answers? Do make your guess k, i'll let you know whether u hit the ball anot..

haihh.. the whole dinner session is just so crazy, we took some pictures as well, all in Iris's camera.. IRIS!! must send to all of us k, our email address is in ur PDA ardy. [kakakaka... Iris must send d this time]

audrey n me wif "Doreamon"

chan sze & lim bee

sze mun, me , audrey

haha... the most talkative gals

and the camera man is ----> adele's boyfriend!

haha... Iris!! just found these pics in ur blog ler.. oh ya... we were also placing bets on who or which couples will get married first. As usual, number one goes to SOO LAY SYE & StEVEN LEE. If 'accidents' are avoided properly, these two is expected to get married first. Hey, what abt 1st and 2nd runner-up?

Monday, April 17, 2006

hOW sELfiSh aRe yOu?

You Are 30% Selfish

In general, you are a very giving person who treats others very well.
But at times, you insist on getting your way - when it matters most to you.

haha..... chiyng, found this test in ur blog.. hmmm....30 % selfish, is this enough? some people say "对别人越好,就是对自己越残忍", do u agree? At times, i do agree with tat... used to think that i can treat everyone well, but not exactly the way now...

Last time, i used to go pasar malam with my fren every Sunday, just to buy some junk food and just like to get into the crowd and have sweat.. Then, i saw one beggar, a woman, hugging a small child sitting there and begging for money, so pityful and i gave her one buck.. few steps away, i saw an old man lying on the ground with wounds everywhere, and i gave him one buck also. Walk walk walk, then i saw this man standing with his tongkat, he lost one of this leg, then i was thinking, "he is more pityful than the previous two.." so i gave him one buck as well.. Not a long distance away, another old man sitting on a chair, he can hardly move, it must be his family who brought him there to beg for money, then i was thinking, "if i dun give him money, his family might not treat him well" and so i gave another buck out of my pocket.

There was one time where i took 4 or 5 milk powder sample from my clinic (to my dear Dr. Chin, sorry tat i didn't ask for ur permission) and gave to that woman with a child, with a hope that these samples will really get into the stomach of tat little child, coz i heard tat some beggars purposely bring a child to beg with them to gain more sympathy.

So, after the pasar malam session, i left with not much money, and i missed my favourite fried chicken wings as well, haha..... My fren was scolding me, and we didn't go pasar malam to do this charity work for some time. Not until yesterday, i went pasar malam again, and gave out one buck to an old lady, just wan them to feel that the world isn't that cruel and cold after all....

Sunday, April 16, 2006

wHat siGN sHLd u bE?

You Should Be A Cancer

What's good about you: you're incredibly kind, caring, and generous

What's bad about you: you can be too moody and impossible to understand

In love: you enjoy wining and dining the object of your affection

In friendship, you're: likely to depend on other friends for emotional support

Your ideal job: historian, marine biologist, or religious figure

Your sense of fashion: you dress to match your mood

You like to pig out on: classic home cooked meals, like mac and cheese

woo-hoo... a cancer instead of a scorpion?


会伤心吧? 无奈吗?

tHe 5 LoVE LaNguAgEs

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time: 9
Acts of Service: 8
Physical Touch: 6
Words of Affirmation: 5
Receiving Gifts: 2


Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

hmmm.... ya, quality time is important for me.. cook together, wash plate together, watch Simpson together, all these simple simple things are just so sweet..

Friday, April 14, 2006



在我的生命里,不寻常的事实在是太多太多了。 不是一点点的不寻常,我所遇到或需要去面对的事情都是几乎都只出现在电影里头。 万分的刺激和紧张, 有一些甚至还没被搬上银幕呢!

人的耐力总有个限度,也许最近发生比较多事情,发生的频率也比较频繁, 让我越来越接近崩溃的边缘。可是,我是一个不容易倒下的女孩,因为我根本不能到,我倒的话,会害了很多人的。

aRE u sTiLL tHiNKinG abt uR eX

did another test, haha... hit by insomnia as well, a disease that widely spread among my frens..

check it out at:

Your ex clearly broke your heart and you haven't yet moved on. Remember that time heals all sorrows, so look positively towards the future. Don't be blinded to the love that might be surrounding you right now.

wow....... speechless.....

kNow uRseLF beTtEr

can't sleep, took another personality test.... is called "Know Urself Better"..

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

tHe rEaL YoU tESt

Here is the analysis after da test:

1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

2. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5. Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time. this the real me?

Thursday, April 13, 2006


突然知道了一些事情,以为自己还是很坚强的,可是,还是伤心得不得了,差一点就哭了。 还好平时的我都能够把眼泪止住,这次也不例外。 不哭不是因为要显示我很坚强,只是觉得哭的时候心里头好难受,都快喘不过气来,所以就选择不哭。

人总会从错误或教训中领悟到一些事情。但是,有些时候,为什么又会一而再,在而三地犯下同样的错误呢?不是因为不知错,不是因为不怕痛, 更加不是为了要证明些什么,只是心甘情愿去做一些自己认为值得的事巴了。

我并没有每天茶饭不思,闷闷不乐,我每天都好好地过我要过的日子,现阶段的我并没有觉得有问题需要去解决。 我真的真的没有要求过什么,保持现状对我来说已经是很好很好的了。

ultrasound on tuesday

Erm... doctor said that the lump is small, so no worries but she wants me to do an ultrasound on tuesday to confirm that tat lump is not dangerous to my body, so we shall wait till tuesday...

a LuMp cont'

hey friends... thanks a lot for everything... me going for check up tonight, Mr Lim Fang Shyuan will fetch me there, erm... will let u all know when i am back k, should be fine i think...

oh ya.. Iris, u have that too huh?? my doctor told me that u can feel the lump gets bigger before period, is normal.. and another doctor told me that it is VERY NORMAL for a girl to have A FEW LUMPS and is not dangerous, sure??!!

to all my friends, love ya lots.. hugssss...

Monday, April 10, 2006

a LuMp

Around a month ago, when i was bathing, i discovered that there is a lump in my left breast, at the place near my arm. Then i tried checking my right breast but there isn't anything there, so i confirmed that there is something in my left breast now.

Then i started letting my colleagues' and a few of my close girl friends to 'feel' tat lump (hahaha.. i am suppose to be serious now n why am i making this sounds funny..) and all of them told me to check properly with a doctor. I told my doctor, Dr Chin about it too and he did check for me also and recommended a female doctor, Prof Yip in UM to do a proper check up. I've made an appointment with Prof Yip and it will be on this coming Thursday, 13 of April. Hmmm... quite worry also cause dunno wat the little lump consists of, whether bad tissue or just some normal fat and i heard that it is extremely painful if i need to go for x-ray.

Let me describe what i heard, to go for x-ray, you need to put ur breast on the machine, just like putting ur breast on the table when u r sitting down, and pull ur breast out if is not big enough and the machine will press ur breast down n then they will do the x-ray for u. The best part havent come out u know?? Can u feel the pain when the machine press ur breast?? and the best part is u need to twist ur breast a little in order to have a clearer view on that lump, i really can't imagine that position man, it makes me laugh... hahahaha..... anyway, the pain will be unbearable.. help!!!

haihh... hopefully i didn't need to go thru all this pain n funny funny position, wish me luck and pray for me k, and who can be my driver that night?? haha...

Saturday, April 01, 2006

a NiGhT oUt.... in LoFt....

Loft, wat a place, haha... all good n bad memories will stay for a very long time...

Clubbing is never a topic for me, at least never really been to one before, and yesterday was the very first time me n Sze Mun spent our night in a club... haha... there was a big group of us, at least 30 of us including my own friends, wei ken, hing chun, terry, yong fatt and sze mun..

Didn't know that my college frens are all good in dancing, amaze me actually, haha... fel really shy to move around in the dance floor, just feel weird and especially when u see ppl are dancing like nobody is around, so freely and u just hav a feeling that u will be a jerk if u can't dance properly.. haha...

We got a VIP table (coz one my fren is their very regular customer) and start to drink..erm... at first we just move our body along with the music, and then we got pulled out by frens to the dance floor and all dance together, is very fun and you won't feel that weird anymore becoz we were in such a big group.. haha...the more u dance the better you'll feel, is not as bad as i thought so, was enjoying myself yesterday,hehe.....

That's the good part, and we were there till around 3 a.m. and the jockey parking fella told us they lost our Yong Fatt's car key. You wana know what car is that right?? haha... is Avanza... The whole bunch of keys with the alarm n house keys are still there, just one key, the main key tat is missing, and if u look at the key chain, you will know that it is impossible for an accidentally dropping of the key.
So we waited for quite long, Hing Chun n Yong Fatt took a bike and went from all the way from KL to Sg. Buloh to get the spare key and come all the way back to KL and Yong Fatt is working at 5 a.m.

and those fella were being damn "lan si" when my frens, the VIP fren n Lawrence were asking them how can this happen and those fella said, "hilang hilang lah, apa boleh kita orang buat, buat report la, buat kecoh sini buat apa, kacau saya buat business saja...." wah, this kind of attitude must kena whack kao kao lo... we reached home at around 5.30 a.m. never came home this "early' before, and all of us were so scared that we opened the door andwalked so softly in the house and we all manage to escape a big roar from our parents coz they didn't know what time we came home.... hAhAHaHA....

Clubbing can be real fun if u enjoy it, is not as bad as i thought so, second night out together??